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QiHui
08June1990
Temasek Poly

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♥ Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Stupid worm
dunno y.. but somewhere below my stomach is very pain now. =( tt time play mahjong at Bo hus.. somewhere left side of my stomach very pain oso. argh. i dun wanna so weak even be4 im getting old. =( im already hving shoulder aches.. backaches and im always over stretching my hand muscles which causes sharp pains and cldn't straighten my hand for a moment. even my throat has recovered, im still hvin slight coughs cos my throat feels very "itchy".. and i dun tink it will disappear tt fast. sob sob..

anyway went central with dar today. walked A LOT and VERY THIRSTY! zzz. dar always make me angry but he nv fail to make me smile. hes so nauti.. dar.. im a GAL!! pls do not box me okay? lol.. will get blue black. ltr one day my hand break how.. =x

oh. and im dying to get nike Arsenal jacket and nike sling bag. both damn NICE lolz. serious. haha. but the jacket look so wierd on me cos like oversize liddat. the sling bag oso like too too big. =x but i wanna get the sling bag. so hopefully i can soon carry a new bag ^^ shall discuss the Arsenal jacket again. =D

Prison break season 1, 2 and 3 rocks. lol. VERY EXCITING VERY NICE!!! serious serious.. wish they can jus let us c everything. still need to wait for weeks and mthssss for the final ep. but good oso.. smth to look forward to.. and at least i wun chiong one whole day watching it.

anyway today at Jupiter damn scary cos they say they saw worm. afterall i nv seen any but i saw one when walking to suntec =.=! damn suay can. den when i scream.. ppl waiting for the traffic light thought wad happened.. i seem to hv phobia for everything.. if u knw me well enuff.. u will find me always looking at the bad side.. and no matter what u do.. i will still look out for worms on the ground when the floor is wet in outdoors. i will realli feel like crying whenever i see any. i WILL hate u if u play those tingy with me. i will try to cover my btm half of my face when i feel tt the trees might hv worms sticking down in spider webs. lol. i knw im damn stupid but tts cos im too scared.


my imagination always run wild.
too wild tt i scare myself too much.
i cant stop.
nobody taught me how to.
i just cant calm myself down.
every dreams i had, they were nightmares.
repeated nightmares too.
i tot they were true.
waking up in terror, calling dar and asked
what if it really happens?
sweet dreams? i don't hv.

i dunno how to explain how i feel. but its just simply one word - scared. im scared. everything can go wrong. studies, family, frens, boyfriend, work.. and marriage. Betray, unfaithful, lies, hatred, etc.. these words exists. they do happen. its so hard to make others and ownself satisfied and happy. theres no sense of security in life at all.

Will love disappear when our hair turns white? ='(


22:45 | nf0undz