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QiHui
08June1990
Temasek Poly

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♥ Wednesday, May 21, 2008
WARNING!: dun read if u dun wanna read a bad mood post
Da jia hao~~

These days abit no mood to blog. lols.. budden here i am again =x

Seriously having bad moods..

Today missed OPSY make-up tutorial.. haiz. damn sians.. cos i totally dunno abt it.. den i actually went out to eat.. haiz, anyway, cant put the blame on anyone.. cos i didnt check OLE for the info. i no mood for the whole of DSAG lecture.. and already feeling bad tt i did not pay attention to the teacher but yet i still did not respond to her - ignoring her.. haiz. during the whole lecture, i was thinking y i still haven quit sch =.= and seriously if i do, it will be a big waste of my parents money and my time. :( and i cannot imagine if i were to not be able to go into programming.. and going into tt another stupid subject selection.. SIGHS A THOUSAND, BILLIONS, ZILLION, INFINITY TIMES! already damn sians for the first term of year 2.

went to check out for music schools again. haiz.. seriously dunno if for my whole life, will i even get a to get into vocal course in a music school not. :'( and to think of it, wad actually benefits me.. if it doesnt even bother with my future. found out about Ocean Butterflies Music School or rather, Music forest. i dunno anything bout the pricing but definitely it will cost a lot.. its at Tanjong Pagar and Music Story is at Outram Park there. Music Forest seem to be a better music school cos of some reasons~ dar ask me to choose to learn piano. Actually i already think mayb i shld jus stick to piano.. but arghh i shld make up a decision and talk to my mum about it. by the way, check out their webby cos seriously its very cool and i like it a lot a lot.. wanna knw how to do it =x http://www.obmusicforest.com/

till now, i still keep asking myself y am i still in TP!!! argh! zzzzz nvm......

and worst, tml FEEDBACK SESSION.. wth la.. i seriously dun wanna go lah pls.. who will wanna go sia.. alamak. wads more.. i already feel like giving up all.. still ask me go this stupid shit!! make everything worseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! birdie say if i dun go jus like tt, like dun give the tcher face. yah i keep thinking of tt for many many days..!! but today, i suddenly tink, already say dun wan liao.. oso nv care our feelings y care urs.. =.= omgggg...................... zzzzzzzzz.. tml plans all mus stop at 5pm jus to go tt bloody hell feedback session. i wan change CMSK4 tcher la.. she last week tell me theres such a ting.. and today she luff at me about it.. wth =.= she luff until so idiotic can.. simply luff until wan the whole class to knw tt i did smth so stupid.. LOL.. and i seriously dun wan to care her feelings liao.. the way she talk and luff at me simply dun care my feelings liddat.. SHES TOTALLY WIERD! i dunno if this is wrong to be blogged about but i dun wanna delete this para le la.. sch spoils my mood EVERYDAY! seems like nth in sch makes me happy.. and its jus luff here n there about OTHER tings den no more liao. totally not interested! and i feel tt im left with no choice but to simply force myself all the way to study for coming tests. ARGH! this kind of feeling sux totally!!!!!!!

haiz kind of regret blogging today.. spoils my mood aft saying bout the school stuffs. i feel like if ever my life or my choice totally goes wrong, i shld jus end my life and say byebye to everything and everyone. i mean, if ever i made a wrong decision on smth big, i dunno how to face the consequences at all. bcos i keep wondering if ever i were to quit sch and learn smth else, wad if i failed there or stopped half way, the same way when i quit my sch wad will happen to me since everything is not satisfying me.. and i shall not be so unreasonable to ask for more and say byebye. most likely, tts the correct choice..

i dunno y, but for my whole life i can only think and jus say bout dying.. but im still alive now. =.= i wonder if ever theres one day when i wanna end my life, how will i choose to.. or rather, will i even hv the guts not =.= which i seriously tink i dun hv.. zzzzzzzzzzzzz thus this leads me to a miserable life. ARGH!

lol. a total crap of post.

something more meaningful =x (at least to me)
going to watch finish A Love To Kill and took MANY MANY RAIN'S pictures with screenshots. he seriously look damn handsome and cute.. but i truthfully say tt i dun like it when his hair is too long.. an example will be on the AUGUST magazine now. (if im not wrong the magazine name is August bah?) yah..

and last but not least, im sweating like a pig NOW, AT HOME! zzzz.. the fan or wind blowing me at all la.. damn it.. already so hot temper now.. and now its so warm externally. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i feel like screaming and scolding someone..

im getting very pissed off easily these days. so i shall ignore ppl whom i wanna ignore and pls dun bother me anymore. if u knw who u r den this is better. and a gentle reminder, dun disturb me pls..... i really wanna get angry every lil things.. even thou ur playing with me.. not at this period of time. if offended, im sorry cos i dun wanna ltr angry with u instead. i neeeeeedddd to calm down VERY VERY VERY BADLY!

:(

love my dar and rain :)

byebyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


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