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♥ Thursday, July 3, 2008
Always expect for a variable change
Seriously i am very sad and stress now.. Today dar dun seem happy at all.. talk to him oso sian sian de.. and sometimes talk to him he nv ans.. but i believe is cos he cant hear me.. whenever im on speaker mode.. i feel tt the person very bz which is usually true and does not wanna talk to me.. so i really dun like to be put on speaker mode.. and the person can hardly hear me de.. haiz. but anyway i jus beared with it.. i know he is tired and he got ulcer which makes talking difficult.. but im really sad to c him like tt.. haiz.. and no matter how i oso dunno how to cheer him up.. make him smile.. haiz.. but he always nv fail to calm me down.. nv fail to cheer me up.. nv fail to let me laugh out loud.. im really feeling so lousy now.. and i believe as u r reading this u und how i feel cos i believe all of u wanna cheer someone up but dunno how to..
but.. im his gf.. and i dunno how to.. :( haiz.. i will jus take it tt everything is cos hes tired.. and he is unhappy for wad i dun dare to do.. like today, i was late for sch.. but no change to take a cab.. and i dun dare to ask the cab driver as i tink a lot of possible situations tt might happen.. for eg.. the taxi is trying to make a u-turn to me so i can ask if he has change or does he accept NETS but im afraid while hes turning, my bus comes and go.. and eventually the cab driver does not hv change and does not accept NETS.. there goes my bus and my cab.. i hate it but i always expect for the worst situations at times tt i shldnt be.. i always give myself unnecessary stress and scare myself for nth.. its always like tt.. and i always imagine this and tt.. and darling nv fails to be angry with me for these.. seriously i really useless and althou i hv tried to change myself throughout these years, i realised i came back to the starting line again and again.. i really dun wan to get bullied.. really dun wan to be so timid.. dun wan to scared this and tt.. but can this really be changed? but i really dun wan to become one of those people whom i really dun like.. and im so afraid i will become one in other people's view. seriously i find it hard to socialize with ppl and i already improve myself a lot in tt compared to last time.. i really scared will offend them.. and i knw i am very childish in things i like and i really dun like to get close with ppl who really very hip-hop tt kind u knw.. like so wierd la.. make me feel really stupid and nv grew up.. but i jus dunno y i hav those kind of interest.. the toys in toys r' us really interest me so much, as much as those kids who wans them.. i really already imagine myself playing and im really very heartbroken when i cant buy it home to play.. but whenever i think back of my thoughts, i really feel very childish and i dunno if this is right or wrong.. only this year i found out tt.. the games i played with my sisters, nobody else played like us.. mayb there is but its so rare and i've nv met any yet.. is tt the reason y i hv this kind of interest.. but still a prob.. but they r not like me oso =.= haiz.. my imagination goes wild.. i believe if anyone of u see how i play those.. really bth me =.= but i tell u.. u will see me really very very happy.. HAHAHA! but i need $$ to buy them first.. :( haiz.. okay i suddenly find it abit funny.. and dunno if u und wad i said.. and i really wonder how dar tink of me.. does he wan me to change this interest of mine? haiz.. if yes i will und why cos i knw ppl tink really not suitable for my age.. =.= and i shld really grow up.. which i seriously feel its not wierd for myself.. jus tt i knw ppl do find it wierd for me.. just now, very long nv walk frm sch to tm.. and when i came home i realised had blisters on the feet.. sobs :( really happy tt xc is willing to help me draw shoes and dustbin.. hope dar wun be unhappy with this.. just now really sad.. cos only ordered 2 tops frm online shopping.. actually i had a full tabs in one window of clothes.. however i really cannot splurge and very sadly close down the tabs one by one.. so actually wanna buy more but in the end lesser cos out of stock le.. and colours left is not the one i want. sob sobs.. ok. i end here le bah. really hate assignments =.= and i seriously dun wan to drag down my grp :( HAIZ 00:31 | nf0undz
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