I have so much thing to rant about.

Arghh

really hate it when all the effort goes to someone else and my effort not seen at all.. and its always liddat.. argh.. anyways jus to tell everyone if things r not urs or not done by u or urself alone plssss say so =.= dun make it look like the other way to other ppl.. so next time i will always remind myself to put at least nfoundz if i can as much as possible.. arghhh the feeling really sux when u put ur effort but it all belongs to someone else..

wadever is it if anybody knws wad im talking abt or who i oso dun care.. i really cannot stand it =.=

received warning letter frm sch and really sux cos i didnt missed any opsy lab be4.. i was jus late but can anybody tell me does it make any diff for it to be absent or late.. cos if theres no diff i shall not do anything bout it.. but it does.. den i sure go say le.. ARGHH and this thing made my parents keep nagging at me and they r going to call me wake up everytime.. i really sick and tired of sch and every morning i will think of i will be walking past tt stupid tree again and i hate hate it soo muchh.. there was one day when i left home earlier than usual but end up more late to reach sch.. and this really sux man =.= jus dunno wad am i doing in IT course.. argh i really wanna take up so much other courses which i am interested in.. why life jus simply cant go the way we want!! and i really really really wishh i can hv a job related to kids like kindergarden tcher, making toys for them and so on.. HAIZ

and y some ppl jus hv SO MUCH THINGS TO HIDE? it jus simply make them look like.. i jus dunno hw to say but its very hard to explain wad kind of things they hid.. argh jus simply wish i could say the whole story out..

ytd i was very sick cos i ate smth wrong and had a really really bad stomach which made my buttock very pain this morning :( i was sweaty yet very cold last nite.. and went to the toilet so many times and i was headache and feverish feeling.. i was really bth and someone actually said "u dun go slp hor" for some reasons ok.. which i really cant say..

and all these cant say its not i wanna hide or wad but i jus cant say cos its someone else's things which i believe tt person doesnt wan to others to knw..

and i dun like people to pester me and irritate me.. arghh so fan.. and tt day someone slamed the lab's door which they said was a gal.. REALLY DAMN IDIOT!! i really had a scare la can.. wth really hope she bang into car and jus go die la.. siao de.. even if she really die i oso wun feel guilty de la.. argh reallyy damn angry and fustrated now..

i hv so many things inside to speak out and i really thank there is still darling who always hears and tell me wad to do.. and explains everything to me.. its sometimes very hard to say anything to anyone because both person r related and u cant possibly complain to them..

aft the previous post i had blogged, i went into the rm and cried and cried.. i jus simply scared dar will leave one day.. i tink i wun b as strong as tt gal and i might jus wanna join him.. it so hard to imagine if i dun hv him by my side.. the thought of tt while reading her blog made me cry so much and my heart hurts so much.. i cant read the words clearly and my eyes so watery but didnt wan to let my sis to c at all..

if only i can return to the past, i wld do the same thing, tt silly thing again to myself.. and mayb i wun hurt so much and mayb my tears can jus flow all they wan and i wun hv to bottle up my feelings all deep inside.. i knw im extremely sensitive and sometimes u knw u dun wan things to happen tt way.. and its not wad u meant at all.. i am always with my stupid phoebia n i dowan ppl to tink im insane.. i jus simply cant get over it and there is no way to!! i am always looking out for it and feeling so afraid everywhere i go and tt cause a lot a lot of limitations in my life.. my life hv really been affecting by it tremendously.. avoiding trees, grasses, food with vegetables, cai fan cos those dishes tt hv black sauce i heard might got worm.. and even now, i hv seen i dunno wad r they called millipedes or centipede or wadever shit.. i seen 2 times in a week and really sux man the feeling.. i feel like my heart is popping out already and so regret to walk past tt place.. they appeared at places which i tot they wldnt and this made me even more scared wherever i go.. i feel like jus ending everything and all the fear will be gone.. but i wan to take dar with me :(

i feel like i am sick emotionally and i really dunno wad to do..

one thing very true my tcher wrote on my report card.. i really dunno hw to handle stress and break down easily..

and one last thing i wanna say is pls be thankful.. rem wad i said to not credit all to urself..

argh my parents r starting with my warning letter again ARGHH I REALLY BTH AH its also not i wan de rite!!

haiz pls la.. i jus wanna be free from EVERYTHING

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