Really no mood now..

Everything so disastrous. Feel like i can acomplish nth.. and wad i knw is only here a bit.. there a bit.. seriously useless =.=

was very very happy jus now chatting with dar.. and he nv fails to make me luff hard.. but when i came out of the room, my heart sank and hv to face my life again..

im feeling so terrible cos im always scared this and tt.. everyday walking past the trees below my flat, i really scared and now, im avoiding food tt contains vegetables as much as possible.. jus bcos i knw abt the caterpillar incident on jm and my sis's fren.. i really hate it when i hv no choice but to walk under trees and i jus simply cant walk out of this fear.. i feel like its smth i can never ever overcome.. and this is affecting my life more and more..

jus now aft sch, jus finished raining.. there are so many flies which i dunno wad r they.. keep flying around everywhere.. and its so disgusting.. puddles everywhere.. and the thought of these water links to the grass where worms are make me feel really really disgusting..

i dunno how can i stop all these crazy thots in my mind.. and its really bothering me really badly.. :'((

feel tt i am surrounded by subjects which i dunno at all.. and i am really not interested.. haiz.. ytd nite make notes.. actually i jus compiled the 3 topics together.. make it neat and nice.. but actually i dunno wad r those codes.. and i cant rem at all.. thus lab test was really terrible.. :(

so wish i cld actually quit sch and do smth else.. but i knw its stupid and all.. and i dun even knw hw to make this possible.. nobody will support for sure.. :(

i am feeling so terrible now..

and i need to get free frm everything.. :'(