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QiHui
08June1990
Temasek Poly

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♥ Thursday, November 13, 2008
why cant i be happy when i reach home?
after project for the whole day and when i finally reach home, i cant even be happy cos i had quarrels with my sis.. why mus it be like tt.. and wad my dad says really hurts me.. i still rem he shouted on the phone when i asked my mum if they could pick me up.. im just asking.. u can jus simply reply me no or say its inconvenient.. why mus shout and say cannot cannot..

why i seem to always do things i am not interested in? why am i always TRYING to get along with other people? WHYY!! i am too troublesome and demanding i know.. mayb im not even suit to even ask others a favour.. they just dont like it..

mayb i should just buy a blazier myself and jus simply fork out $100+ over to JUST wear tt once.. mayb i shldnt even hv borrowed from her.. i knw it well myself tt she gets angry easily..

why i seem to always dun get along with them.. why mus they always raise voice at me.. why i feel like i am hated by them so so so much.. why do i feel so unwanted..

i dont want to jump down on a patch of grass.. i dun wanna end it tragically.. i dun wan to end it in pain.. i dunno hw i cld do it peacefully..

when? when can all these be really over and nv happen again?

why do i cry when i am supposed to be happy, after all the hard work for my project tt it is done? when? when can i b happy?

i dun wanna force anyone to do anything but i always seem to hv no choice and i am really stressed up thinking of this and tt.. thinking for alternatives.. and this really upset me cos i seem to always trouble dar when i knw he is really x10000000000 unwillingness.. sometimes i really want to leave him and at least i dun hv to force him.. and at least i wun expect smth back frm him which i really knw tt i cant hv it..

haiz.. everything sucks


22:55 | nf0undz