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Wretch

2010-03-23T22:31:00.000+08:00

Yoooo

Changed of blog link to: http://www.wretch.cc/blog/blu3paint

Re-link me okk? :D

Photos in FB

2010-03-07T01:07:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Da Jie~ 5th March
and......
Happy Birthday Mei~ 6th March

Yeah~ so ytd on the 6th went Sentosa with darling.. SCDF Family Day thus theres lots of discount priviledges.. was really warm but really fun~! amazed with the first look of the Resort World's castle.. hahaha! was really excited! furthermore we went underwater world.. dolphin show.. skyride.. which i was really scared :( i dun understand why everyone else can free their hand and just enjoy their ride.. i felt like the rope will snap anytime or we might just drop down like that.. and everything is over!

but lucky nth happened.. safe and sound blogging here :)

really amazed how the dolphin location renovated.. it was SO MUCH DIFFERENT from the first time i saw dolphin show there.. hahaha.. the seals and dolphins were really really cute!!! see the way they move around and how they performed.. wow.. im still very amazed how humans can communicate with them :D the way they ate fishes looked so greedy~~ hahaha so cuteeee!! wanna keep one of the dolphin as my pet one day!!!! =x you know.. i actually felt like crying when i saw the seals enclosed in a transparent box.. after performing.. they looked pitiful being moved away just like that.. yah, but wad else can i expect rite? they might hv treat them really good behind too~ cos i believe all the trainers love them and of cos, love animals~ ^^

so, i find myself really silly. so on the way home, i kept asking dar stupid qns like how do people knw we need money and actually knw wad is money! and how do they knw how to build aeroplanes that can FLY! build ships that can travel on water.. bombs that can bomb =x and i still dunno why humans even exists.. who is the first person then? how does he/she come about?

o.0 its really wierd..

or is it just me?

thanks darling for just now's enjoyable day! :) bought fishballs home and mum cooked porridge for me which was super yummy~ didnt expect it to turn out so good cos its me whom tell her wad to put in~ hahaha.. did she put in any secret recipe? ^^

yah.. was really troubled wad to bring to hk.. seriously dunno how cold is it.. very? or acceptable? haisss so troubled. and i realised i keep wearing the same old clothes everyday!! and now.. i seriously no much clothes to bring.. really wish i got the money to shop for everything i want now.. hehe!

bringing my OmniaII to act as my camera for the trip. aww.
learn to be satisfied~

hais feeling quite bad now.
nitex le..

It's Over

2010-03-03T01:14:00.004+08:00

Dun wan to mention that its been a mth since i updated my blog.. but its the fact.. haha.. cny is over~ hope everyone had fun~ :D hk trip next tues~ my longest trip overseas.. cos i seldom travel.. not much $$ thou.. so i shall go take a look and take photos ok? ;)

sad to say.. spent my cny without my sony camera.. its not stolen but its gone.. hais.. still brooding over this.. afterall its not very cheap althou i only fork out 20% of it.. shall get another one.. aft i manage to change iphone ok? aww.. will money fall from the sky please?

MP is over.. but still need to go back sch to do some touch-ups for IT Project show which i will not be involved bcos of my hk trip.. sry to jw n birdie :( didnt mean to ps the 2 of u..

its really very hard to say how u feel.. and wad u want.. when u r always thinking for others every now and then.. results in making me sad for not getting wad i want.. or getting ppl und wad im thinking.. its v difficult to be human.. but other than being a human, wad else can i be huh? so its v wierd.. i mean the tings i say..

great.. im not making any sense.. so wad im trying to say jus now.. MP is over.. and tt means im graduating soon.. and.. i really blame myself for not having the courage to pursue wad i really want.. like i said long ago, i really need courage, confidence, opportunity and luck.. hais.. qihui ah qihui..

so, for not having the courage to do so, i actually went to search for alternatives related to it.. hope the job scope is interesting.. and lets first hope they ask me to go for the interview ok? shall apply aft my hk trip :)

thinking of it every single day.. how depressed can it be..
keep telling myself to take it easy and relax.. :(

grats to myself i have not been exercising.. great..

yeah~ continue to watch show and dota ok..
zzz

bth myself.. gonna slp soon..
byebye le.. :D

2010-02-08T23:23:00.001+08:00

Unlucky day~
Lost~
Accident~
Haizz

Hope bel bel's face recover soon :(

haven even see.. hear le jiu xin tong..
imagine kahyi.. papa and mama feelings..
haiss more xin tong..

2010-01-24T09:38:00.003+08:00

我真的很想大哭一场 ='(

It's funny when you feel bad, you asked me, I told you not to do, but you die die still want to do, but you still feel bad.. haha.. So why bother? Why bother about me? If you did nothing wrong, you need not feel guilty or feel bad.. and I will not have anything to make you feel bad.. right?

Maybe you don't know how much I didn't like it..

真的很想放弃这一切
我就不用那么辛苦了

Ashlyn

2010-01-20T00:38:00.002+08:00

hais.. feeling really empty now..
really dunno how to describe this feeling..
but i feel very moody right now :(

really must learn to accept how ideas clashes one another..
afraid how things will turn out after graduation..
need to make plans already..
everytime think of it, im really not happy about it..
how am i able to achieve it..
what if i say, i dun have other options in mind?
does that mean i die die have to think of other options?

hais..

is it okay to still have childish taste?
why am i still not attracted to mature clothings and bags?
is there smth wrong? lol

anyway, Happy 4 years 7 months to darling on 19 January 2010.
but seriously speaking, i still want to see wangzi :D
and then.. say hi to him ^^

at least, its not as bad as SIP..
starting part-time this Friday till 12 Feb.. aww
need some $$ for hk trip..

dun leave me out :(

Hope its not obvious.

2010-01-08T00:20:00.002+08:00

hais.. just now i typed my blog entry already..
and bcos of other window not responding, it closed my blogger windows.. zzz
and so.......... wad i have previously typed is all gone.. great..

last few weeks watched Caroline, Nine, Ratatouille, Cloudy Meatball.
and watched the back part of UP in Singtel shop..

ytd nite watched 听说 online.. tears and laughters.. great show.. :) very interesting to me.. haha.. tot tt show was out long ago in Taiwan and tot its not appearing in SG.. the other day saw the picture in Cathay website.. surprised :D if u read my blog, i mentioned this show few posts back..

Ivy Chen Yi Han really cute and pretty! pretty like Rainie :D and and!! Eddie Peng Yu Yan.. hes sooooo cute! aww like them both a lot.. i watched their dramas and movies before :D

i finally used the mask i bought the other time at faceshop ytd..
i really must eat lesser, eat more fruits and exercise more..
kind of excited bout hk trip on march.. but at the same time, so much worries and things im afraid spinning around in my head.. well, i just tell myself.. if i keep thinking, it will happen.. but knowing wad actually happened be4, im really quite worried.. althou its just a small thing.. but.. its just a feeling uncomfortable inside me.. :(

hais its really very scary to know people like them..
maybe im thinking too much
but maybe its true..
how close you can be with them..
the closer, the greater disappointment and hurt
keeping things and lying
don't know wads true or wads not..
knowing everyone has 2 faces, just how scary it can be..

hais.. or maybe im just over-protecting myself.
questions spinning round and round all over my head..
yet i know some things we must use our heart to feel..
are they true?

they might not say out..
but when u sense it, its really not a feeling tt is good..
its really bad..
maybe talking out seems useless.. or maybe im giving it up
giving up our trust

bcos im not the impt one that they would want to be truthful to, to share with.
bcos they have other friends, which doesnt make any difference if they got me, as a friend.

i know the answer. thats why i am still not happy at all.
being arnd with them, just makes me increase my awareness
and be careful of every word i say.

bcos i knw its character, thats y i dunno wad to do..
afraid of offending them..
and once offended, i can feel it..
i am sorry, but i just don't know how to put it in a nicer way.
haiz.

I just want to stay comfortable, and be me.
A happy me..

HAPPY 2010!! ^^

2010-01-02T01:24:00.006+08:00

HELLO! 大家好!!

新年快乐!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! ^^

Finally get to see beautiful fireworks this year! WOW!!

Its really beautiful!! HEHE! Happy New Year everyone!!

Hope everyone enjoyed their countdown.. :D

May everyone have a happy year ahead :DD

Went to eat at Orchard Central's Victoria Peak!

Its a chinese restaurant serving really nice food! hehe..

It was a treat by darling's 大姨 :D

谢谢你 ^^

Headed to somewhere in front or behind Marina Square.. haha.. Very very crowded! There was a road block for the crowd to get over to Esplanade.. aww.. Despite the crowd and warm atmosphere, i had enjoyed myself with the countdown.. hehe! Its been really long since i last countdown in the crowd!! HEHEHE! Was really happy when i see the fireworks with dar and his relatives :D And there.. i celebrated the first second of my 2010 :D

Headed to Bedok Simpang for Roti Prata after that.. and there were cockroaches! of course.. haha.. so terrified.. but luckily nothing happen :D

Hehe.. I told dar i would blog about my 2010 resolutions! But he say.. resolutions are supposed to be set before the year comes.. hahaa! i didnt know that.. but nvm.. heres mine.. HAHAHA

1. Lose as much weight as possible!

2. More exercise, less junk foods, more sleep =x

3. Stand straight

4. Don't think too much of the "what if"

5. Learn to improve on 才艺

6. Save to buy a piano keyboard, iphone/itouch.. (more to come in the year.. haha)

7. BE HAPPY!

Yeah~ I dunno if some of the things in my head is counted as resolutions or not.. hahaha! actually i dun really know the definition for it.. so........... lol please do not laugh at me ah :D

Wish to see Prince one day! Of course, it would be good if i could see the other members of 棒棒堂，超克7 and 黑涩会美眉! Dunno when will this day come.. hehe.. but i believe it will :) 好期待如果有一天能够去看台湾现场综艺节目..

Its not childish.. when the time comes, don't let go of the opportunity if you can, if you have the ability to. Don't regret like how i feel now.. But maybe what's lacking is the ability to..

Haa. Something what i keep thinking about ytd.. dun feel like saying what is it about thou..

Rainie & Love....? 雨爱

YAY! Got all the songs and lyrics already.. hehe! 真佩服我自己阿! :D

Had a hard time finding.. Her songs so far all not bad.. haha.. altogether 10 songs.. :D

Learning time in the morning ltr ;) Hope to see her again :D

Whee.. looking at spree now.. So distracting.. hahaha.. so i shall end my post here now..

Hongkong in March!!! Wheeeeeeee!!! :D

Disneyland.. HERE I COME!! :p

Byebye 2009 :D

2009-12-31T17:30:00.002+08:00

Hello all!
This shall be the last post for the year 2009!
I know i should be positive about the coming of 2010..
But looking forward to the future is something i really scared of..
What would the future bring.. and what i will be doing..
Will everything be alright?

2009 is quite a bad year for me..
All the unfortunate decisions about me made by other people..
Travelling to Jurong East to do programming for full 23 weeks.. Aww
Thats a really mentally toturous experience..
But afterall its great meeting Vinson there.. haha
Okay.. let it pass.. let it pass :D

Hope the future will bring more happiness..
And it will be my graduation year..
And its time to really get a job.. which i hopefully its to my interest..
Guy friends going to National Service..
We will meet new people again..
Nice people i hope ^^

Going to have dinner later at Orchard with darling and his relatives later..
A lot years never see fireworks already..
Hope this year can see yah ^^

In advance, wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!! :D

Why? Hais

2009-12-23T21:27:00.002+08:00

Haiz.. very very disappointed with myself today..
Do you know how much i hate myself at tt point of time?
I keep questioning myself inside and how much i wanna cry and hit myself.. to punish myself for being like tt.. how much how much i wanna run away..

In the end, it ended up being pitiful and got sympathy from u all.. really hate that..
really feel like digging a deep hole and jus hide inside there forever, than to let u all c
my face at tt time. haiz

really feel unimportant and ignored. i make no difference to anyone.. and am still continue being ignored.. do i really suck this much? everything i say and do is just extra..

reached home and quarrelled with big sis and dad.. yah great.. really hate breaking down so easily.. dad, if u are really so unhappy me being with him, why not just ask me to break up with him? i really hate it when im stucked in the middle of anything.. please just stop it.. whether izzit u or my frens.. pls..

really hate it tt i actually think so much and bother so much abt all ur feelings.. i really wish i can just hack everything and just do wad i want..

why didnt i just leave everything?
i oso didnt want all these to happen..

2009-12-14T22:59:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DARLING!! :D

His birthday on 13 Dec, cut cake on 12 Dec.. :D

Soundtrack

2009-12-03T00:06:00.002+08:00

I want 海派甜心 OST! :(

爱疯头 - Mr Pig
爱不单行 - Mr Pig
生理时钟 - Mr Pig
执着 - Rainie

I can't find full proper one..

倒数12天
Why do we feel your change of attitude towards us?
Are we thinking too much? Or is this true?
Realised everytime someone reminds me you are a good guy..
But why do i feel you are good but something is hiding in there?
Its so much scarier.
Am i thinking too much? Really really hope i am.
The feeling of doing something wrong and unecessary and afraid of being disliked.
:(

Welcome December!!

2009-12-02T00:30:00.002+08:00

YAY! Its finally December, the month i have been waiting for the past 5 months since July 13.
Another 13 working days more..
HEHE!
Please ask me out! I wanna get a life.. haha..
but i still feel like watching shows and game.. hehe =x
darling cut his finger when he accidentally put his finger into the fan.. ouchhh!
becareful!! please apply the yellow ointment :(

really love the korean songs.. haha.. did i mention i feel like learning korean language? :p
i realised i forget a lot of things that i did and said..
oh no.. even grace, jess, huiling they all realised.. oh noooo..
i didnt hv any idea i did asked and said the exact same thing before..
even aft they tell me..
zzzz whats wrong.. am i dreaming?

my feet stinks.. and im really depressed abt it..
nvm. aft 18 Dec, i can let my feet breathe :D

can anyone teach me how to put eyeliner? haha =x

You're Beautiful

2009-11-29T21:44:00.003+08:00

Yo~ Finished watching You're Beautiful this week. HEHES! ITS A SUPER SUPER NICE KOREAN SHOW! Please go and watch it! haha.. its really nice :D

Jang Geun Suk is so cute! haha! He's also the one who acts in Beethoven Virus.. which i have watched and mentioned few posts ago.. Really good actor ;)

The OSTs are very nice!!! As you can hear.. its the first few songs in my playlist ^^ 真的真的很好看也很好听!! 没有骗你! :D

So sad that i have finished the show! arghh wanna re-watch it all over again.. how i wish theres part 2 or what.. hehe.. every episode is so exciting.. gogo watch!

Really feel like learning korean.. so i can watch and understand without referring to subtitles and able to sing korean songs without looking at romanji lyrics.. although i have watched several korean dramas before, this show really made me wanna go learn.. haha.. who knows? maybe one day i can even talk Jang Geun Suk :D HAHA.. and and Rain! have you watch Ninja Assasin by the way? Its also very nice.. haha.. every part is so exciting and very bloodyyy! yeah~~

Gonna catch mediacorp's Together on mobtv now.. keke~

Countdown 15 working days of attachment.. ZZZ! Really gonna die from it.. Given so many tasks.. Feel that is because i am leaving.. thats why he give me so many things to do! Previous tasks already don't know how to do.. having problems.. yet he still keep giving me so many difficult tasks.. the main point is i don't even wanna do it.. im not even interested and like it.. you keep giving me more and more things.. it just simply make me not wanna do anything at all.. didnt i already did a lot of things which i have no choice.. and dont wanna do de things..? Yah.. i know you dont know about this, so forget it.. i just need to tolerate another 15 working days.. and it will all be over.. i have already tolerate 5 months plus, i am sure i can tolerate another 15 days.. by the end of this attachment, i will really be "proud" of myself to be able to go through this 6 months.. and that i listened to my friends who told me to just tahan this 6 months.. and not to do anything silly. For my 19 years, this 6 months is really the most unhappy time i have gone through. Maybe like you said, i really don't know how to reject, and say NO to you. Anyway you won't be reading this. Anyway if you do, this attachment has already been over :) So everything will be okay.

Had a wierd nightmare this morning.. Dreamt about world war in Singapore.. and there are explosions everywhere and theres a lorry gonna drive some people to somewhere safe.. and we are not sure if we wanna follow the lorry.. it may take us to somewhere safe.. but along the way, who knows we might meet the baddies and get killed.. So in the end we didnt follow the lorry.. Hid here and there, went home and packed our clothes and things.. Wow.. its scary when i woke up and heart is thumping.. went back to sleep and continue the war.. =.=zz

When will i ever have good dreams?? :( Im always having nightmare.. :(

讲了一大段, 最后总结.. 记得要去看 "原来是美男啊"! :D

21天

2009-11-18T21:51:00.004+08:00

剩下一个月
虽然知道很快就过去，但是还很痛苦。
每天想着回到学校会更快乐
再忍耐多一下下
拜托让时间快点过去 =(

刚刚看完一部韩剧 - 白雪公主。
真的没有听过。。但是蛮好看的 :D
之前想要快点看到女主角变美的时候，所以一直fast forward.
到后面真的很exciting!! 很好看啊! ^^

那天和仲轩去看2012。。超好看的啦!
喜欢世界末日那种戏 :)

已经有几天没和她说话了 haii..
无所谓吧。。真的真的不想做什么了
工作已经够累了。。
今年好像没有一件事是顺利的。。 Haizz

真的很想去唱k
有时候我太过担心别人会不喜欢我，讨厌我
真的不想自己在这样了
放下一些东西，也许我会更快乐。
真的很多事情想要去做
也真的受不了每次控制不了自己
看戏看到这么晚! 真是活该!

现在只是想这一切快点结束 =(

恨

2009-11-14T17:35:00.002+08:00

Ytd walked arnd bugis alone while waiting for dar to finish sch..
Felt really really bored.. purposely walked one big rnd to waste time..
Didnt want to go home to see my family.
Came home today and the moment i came back,
heard her voice and for the first time, felt very irritated.
really hate her.
am i wrong in the first place?
the moment i saw the shorts, i called her immediately to see if she wants it or not..
cos i know shes looking for it.. trying hard to explain and hope she und..
in the end i only bought hers cos theres no other size left for me..
even ask my fren to help me hold her shorts while i try other shorts..
cos its the last piece and still afraid other ppl will take..
haiz.. for wad i do all these..
trying hard to explain to her tt it cannot be refunded and theres no size left at all..
but this is all wad i got..
really see no point in helping them already..
haha wad a family i have..
father and mother i love you?
lol.. i really do but everytime u all are trying hard to make me hate u all..
im really scared.. and feel really left out..
doesnt matter if im here or not..
cos nobody doesnt even care..
im just too extra.. really really dunno why am i still here..
its really funny i slapped myself just to let my specs drop and break rite..
really funny tt i hit my ownself till my hands become numb and blood clots on my thighs which appear to be really ugly..
do you knw how lonely i left.. how much i wish for more love..
how much i feel like hiding myself in a corner.. and to hide from my family..
how much i dun even wanna to see them anymore again..
how much i wanna cherish them but hate them..
why..

seems like im spinning myself..
getting crazier and crazier..
finding out how overdose can kill..
imaginations running wild
and scared of myself..
keep trembling and telling myself its ok its ok its ok..
does this world really suck?

也许不是他们讨厌我
只是我太讨厌自己了
我到底做错了什么?
真的很怕自己神经兮兮的

不想要等到失去后才来后悔。

2009-11-04T18:51:00.004+08:00

Realised how unimportant i am to my family and friends.
Hais.. wad a failure..

Yeah~ Niece arrived last week 28th October 2009! Wednesday~
SHES SOOO CUTE!!! hehe.. rite rite rite?

tinking lots of things..

and wonder.. if i shld change.......... ah nvm

got the urge to stop all my facebook games..

ask me out~~ ahh
i shld see the world more..

haha

Hi My Sweetheart is finally out last Sunday :)

Haiz.. today really not geng.. why do everyone seem to tink it tt way..

even my mum..

what dar said really make sense to me..

and i feel it will really happen when the day comes..

cos its happening already..

really hope i could do more.. to make things better..

alright?

its really hard.. to balance both sides..

haiz.. really hate SIP to the core..

i know tt i shld change the way i tink about some things..

but i really dunno why am i so stubborn..

to keep thinking only the negative side..

and blinded to see that there is really no positive side..

i just wish this internship can end..

i want to change for the better :(

please help me..

hope u all can understand me better..

many times, i really really dunno how i shld do..

what decisions i shld make..

sometimes im tinking.. do i need help?

or its only me who i can help myself?

everyone got their own problems..

mayb mine is just a smaller one :(

i dun wan to be so lazy anymore..

to my family.. to my frens..

sometimes im just scared..

so afraid one day.. i will go screw loose because im too scared..

really dun wan tt to happen :(

ahhh qihui..... cheer up..

dun be so depressed anymore..

有人是真正的心的吗?

2009-10-27T23:13:00.003+08:00

Haiyo..
Squeezing 3 person in a room :(
Felt like im the one gonna get squeezed out :(
My mei seem to feel like my jie instead..

Air refresheners are so expensive!

Jiayou to kahyi sister :)
Hope her birth goes smoothly..
the next time shes back, is with the baby!
yippeeee!! ^^
HEHE! feels happy for her..
Niece coming out on 28th October 2009 :D

2009-10-27T00:01:00.002+08:00

omggg please watch 下一站, 幸福..

its really nice!! never bluff u ^^

hehe. happy that Zewin sis and Yanteen sis are both watching shows that i intro-ed. hehe! seeing them continue watching the whole show.. :D

wanna buy air-refreshener for my room.. and.. a hair clip.. hehe.. today on bus saw a lady tied her long straight hair with a nice clip.. whee~ wanna go see see :D really nice leh.. i hope she didnt notice i keep seeing her hair.. haha..

awww. i wanna buy the bubble hair dye again! weixiong dyed his hair for 1 hr.. omgg tink i wanna try 45 mins next time.. regret rushing to dye the other time :(

My niece is coming out on 28 Oct! My sis sure very nervous.. but 加油加油 ok? ^^
There are some pics of her stomach with the baby inside!! in Yanteen mei mei's blog.. and you can see my da jie leg very bloated :( 可怜..

Left 8 weeks of attachment.. omg 我也好可怜.. :(

Shows

2009-10-18T21:42:00.005+08:00

Hellooo

Few Saturdays ago went Fareast to shop with my er jie :)

Bought a lot things!

haha.. even bought and tried the bubble hair dye!

As time was too rush when i did it, the colour not tt obvious :(

Celene & Zhi Rong's Wedding on Saturday, 26 September 2009.

Wish them live together happily forever ^^

More pictures on facebook.. :)

Hehe.. thanks birdie for accompany me to TM levis to buy jeans today! :D

Finally got a wearable jeans!

Yeah~ trade in my old jeans to have $50 off.. :)

Had lunch with her at CS food court.. and chit chat~

Haiii.

I still left another 9 weeks.

9 seems a small number..

But to see it as 2 months and 1 week.. ITS SUPER LONGGG

ahhhhhhh

why huh!! why am i there.. zzz

getting headaches nowadays at work.

really difficult. haiz

sometimes i wished i didnt know c# programming..

im really very bored now.. watched finish so many shows~

including Baby Bonus 添丁发财!

ANDDDD BEETHOVEN VIRUS! hahaha

wahhh Jang Geun Suk is really cute!!~

haha.. but still i prefer Prince~

but nowadays dun have much of his news :'(

no idea why this week dun have Amber's show ep..

but nvm.. tml can watch ep 3 for Autumn Concerto le :D

SUPER NICE!!

Theres also another new show today! Momo Love!

Rainie and Show Luo's 海派甜心 will be out on 1st Nov! :D

I wanna watch 聽說! BUT i find everywhere also dun have. SIGHHH!
Anybody got any idea where i can watch this??? Let me know~~~ Thanks! :D

Shall end here today. My December~~ AHHHH

By the way, going Hong Kong next year March ^^
期待~

我是沈琪惠

2009-09-30T23:49:00.004+08:00

人是自私的吧?

感觉不被重视

有没有我，对你们来说不重要。

有时候在想，我到底有没有朋友。

想找个人谈心，想找个人一起吃晚餐

想找个人一起游泳，跑步

想找个人陪我走走。

很可悲吧。

被隐瞒了这么久，我并不是生气。

是伤心，失望。

晚上自己哭。

真的想会有谁在乎我的存在。

这么辛苦的活下去是为了什么。

一次又一次告诉自己

醒来候一切会更好。

但从来也没有。

梦想是要怎么追?

真的会有那么一天吗?

福气又安康

2009-09-23T23:05:00.004+08:00

Hiii

Peeping at my mei's lappy these few days and shes watching dramas which i long finished. haha! so distracting~ but anyway, when the first ep for 福气又安康, i watched.. but i didnt continue! last weekend saw the advertisement on scv.. haha some scenes which made me wanna watch again.. so i spent my Monday public holiday staying at home and only managed to finish ep 2-11!! aww. only manage to finish 12-16 ytd and today due to work :(

aww should i feel lucky tt i didnt continue watch? bcos its too exciting!! my heart cannot take it.. to wait for every weekend! omgggg the show is not finished yet.. so i have to wait every Sunday which the show will be played in Taiwan~ and bcos i Monday got work.. only can Monday night den watch. how sad..

really nice!! hehe. made me cry a lot times and oso made me laugh. haha~ got handsome guyS.. LOL =p gogo watch! :D

At least im able to catch Amber's 那一年的幸福时光 on weekends~ So theres 2 shows for me to look forward to ^^ got shuai ge oso~~

Sadly, my attachment still another 13 weeks including this week. tts 3 months. wad just past.. after so long its only 3 months tt just past! oh my........ feeling really terrible every single day.. every second seem so heavy.. seem so slow.. i am tired. not wanting to do all these. getting more helpless each day.. and someday.. i wish i can just heck everything there. still, no one to help. haha.

Saw 3 worms today.. separately. how amazing. haiz.

Its just for another 3 months............. "JUST"

Had to leave my baby Omnia 2 at home which i just bought last Saturday :D thanks to darling with his coperate plan and with the promotion M1 had.. yippee! thus i say goodbye to my LG KF350 pink ice-cream phone which already had some problems.

hais. watch blackies first before i slp bah.

love the new song in my playlist~ ending song for 福气又安康~ sang by 夏宇童 - 就要幸福了

good nitex.

Little Devil

2009-09-13T01:35:00.006+08:00

Hi, the side shot picture background was removed anyhow. hah

Stayed home for the whole of my Saturday, which is saddening.

Was hoping to enjoy outside.

I wish my genes had a little crazy mixture. hehe

Anyway, finally a picture of me after so long.

I don't know which camera mode i should use at which time. LOL

Smiling makes my face rounder.

Aw. Today figured out the thing that is missing on my face is call nose bridge! :'(

I think you didn't realise that shirt i was wearing is Lollipop Asia Tour 2009 shirt! :D

HEHE! I went to collect it last week.

I know you can't see it LOL but i just want to say =p

There are a few more pics thou ^^

Anyway, I seriously need more tops, bottoms and footwear!

2am+ yet i still hope to stay awake longer.

Monday is coming soon..

Rain's Ninja Assassin movie will be out this 25 November.

Trailer is already out~ :D

Shall end here. Nights!!

p.s. I want to see Prince someday <3

說說

2009-09-10T21:59:00.005+08:00

Tml shall be the official release of 說說 MV! Whee~
A song written and composed by my 王子! hahaaa
he updated his blog! :D
Don't u agree hes really handsome?? HEHE!

<棒棒堂> - 说说 ♥

下课钟声回到耳边
沈默夕阳倒映我脸
互传纸条的那画面
消失般那光线
秋天气息感染树叶
泛黄照片还放桌前
操场上的那些麻雀
随枫叶分飞
我们曾经说好的幸福永远
一直藏在书包的拉鍊
多麼希望回到那年
我们写的诗篇

好想听你说说爱我
好想听你说说想我
这些年你有没有曾经想起过我
好想对你说说爱你
好想对你说说想你
这些年你知不知我常想念著你
想念著你

秋天气息感染树叶
泛黄照片还放桌前
操场上的那些麻雀
随枫叶分飞
我们曾经说好的幸福永远
一直藏在书包的拉鍊
多麼希望回到那年
我们写的诗篇

好想听你说说爱我
好想听你说说想我
这些年你有没有曾经想起过我
好想对你说说爱你
好想对你说说想你
这些年你知不知脑袋里装的全都是你
全都是你

搜索著我的感受
心里话全说出口

好想听你说说爱我
好想听你说说想我
这些年你有没有曾经想起过我
好想对你说说爱你
好想对你说说想你
这些年你知不知脑袋里装的全都是你
全都是你

听你说说多爱我
听你说说想我
谢谢你曾经陪著我
说著我们幸福的经过

Facebook Account :(

2009-09-07T23:39:00.002+08:00

I wonder if i should buy that book. hee..

WHATS GOING ON WITH MY FACEBOOK ACCOUNT...
zzzzzzzzzz
what did i do?!
How come everything seemed like my account is banned. OMG
For no reason. I hope everything will be solved!
If not my effort for 2 weeks will be wasted in..
Country Story, Roller Coaster, Restaurant City and Farm Ville!
OMGGG
NOOOO
Please let me login.. I want to harvest my crops! eeekks
My workers are waiting for me to feed them!!

Your account is temporarily unavailable due to site maintenance. It should be available again within a few hours. We apologize for the inconvenience.

and when ppl view my profile..

Account unavailable! OMG

Damn shagged today.
Most shag of all day for no reason as well..
Shag until i really headache.. giddy and nauseas..
Really bth. I really dun wan to do this kind of job..
Its not my type at all. ahhh
I wan to talk! Not sit there and stare in the computer programming codes!!
N, O NO!

Save me~~
I want to stop complaining. HAHA

Gonna be in dress again this month~ Celene's wedding~~ hehe ^^
Smth for me to look forward to enjoy~
Andddd hope there will be new interns =x
I reallyyyy bth!

Oh, i should go for the sony camera course!
Cause im really dumb! zzz

Song for the day~

亲爱的 - 潘玮柏

我叮咚的弹奏着故事里那首儿歌
缤纷的音乐盒木马还旋转着
我叮咚的弹奏着童年的纯真快乐
亲爱的这时刻有梦就大声唱歌

我们迎着风边走边唱
边坚定来自于远方那坚定的信仰
沿着那溪边走有水车的声音
我走着看着风中摇曳可爱的蒲公英
经过凉亭我们穿越竹林
看着山顶如棉花糖的白云
面对着阳光就不需要那阴凉
拥有不同心境相信你会看到更特别的风景

闭上眼睛静静聆听屋檐那串轻脆的风铃
许愿要找个流星幸福就要彼此互相扶持互相关心
Oh 他们说玫瑰象征着爱情
那插满一把玫瑰花的花瓶
是否证明不是不笃定是不是真的有童话这件事情 Hey

我叮咚的弹奏着故事里那首儿歌
缤纷的音乐盒木马还旋转着
我叮咚的弹奏着童年的纯真快乐
亲爱的这时刻有梦就大声唱歌

我们手牵手一直的走
紧紧的相依的努力攀过吊桥绳索
在脚下经过的一条蜿蜒小河
心里面联接的是满满友情难以割舍
整个山坡苹果树已红透
还有干净泉水大口畅饮
橘子也成熟田里面还有泥鳅
真的快乐却是好多朋友陪着我们一起走

闭上眼睛静静聆听屋檐那串轻脆的风铃
许愿要找个流星幸福就要彼此互相扶持互相关心
Na hey--- 爱让我更自由
Na hey--- 一起大声说出口
跟我一起手牵手真心到永久这就是爱的生活

我叮咚的弹奏着故事里那首儿歌
冰棒呢配可乐爆米花还温热
我叮咚的弹奏着童年的纯真快乐
开着车遥远了回到最初的选择
我叮咚的弹奏着故事里那首儿歌
冰棒呢配可乐爆米花还温热
我叮咚的弹奏着童年的纯真快乐
开着车遥远了回到最初的选择

我叮咚的弹奏着故事里那首儿歌
冰棒呢配可乐爆米花还温热
我叮咚的弹奏着童年的纯真快乐
开着车遥远了回到最初的选择

okay, ending sadly~
15 weeks more :(

《精舞门2》

2009-09-06T21:46:00.002+08:00

邱王子~ 帅呆了! hehe!

不知道精舞门2几时播。。

我一定要去看 :D

棒棒堂在台湾的综艺节目没有王子参与~ :(

就为了要拍戏。。但已经杀青了。。

所以希望可以快点多看到王子喔 ^^

明天又要上班了 :(

真的很辛苦，很难。

每一天都感到很无助。

只盼望十二月可以快点来临!!

一天一天就那么不开心的过。。。

有时后真的很需要有人陪。

很开心dar前天陪我去唱歌~ ^^

虽然时间很短，但我很满足

因为我知道他是希望我能开心一点。

星期六还陪我去逛街! :D

谢谢你!! 也很对不起。。

害到你的脚酸 :(

好了就到这里。

真的真的希望有一天能够看到王子，和他说话!

哈哈! :D

2 Dreams.

2009-09-03T23:45:00.002+08:00

297th post.
wow.

why do i always feel im still as immature as before.
read someone's blog, which i felt shes really strong, independent and ready to move on.. why do i have to be afraid of this and that? its hard to overcome it..

Qihui, u mus learn to take things easier.
See, everything, and everyone else.. still the same.
Yet u cant bear jus these few mths?

On the MRT today, i imagined how life would be teaching kids :D
And i imagine how i might struggle passing the English well =.=

I still want to create my own dollhouse one day :(

haiz.. bth myself

2009-09-02T23:22:00.004+08:00

Hello.
i really think my stomach got some problem.
zzz! am i still young to go for full body check up?
hav a feeling i might hv a lot of probs..
but its exp :(
intern life really spoils my whole life routine..
no time for sports.. games.. outings..
envy dar, envy the others..
can go kbox whenever they wan..
go jogging and swimming which i cant..
hate going swimming during weekends..
crowded and lessons going on..
arghhh. dun even hv to chance to go swim on a weekday.. omggg
weekends are so crowded everywhere.
shopping malls.. and even the internet is laggier during weekends..
youtube load slower and games more ppl..

HAIZ

how am i gonna manage my time..
when i wanna go swim on a weekday morning =.=
LOL kns ARGH

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

qi si wo le!

i have never hated a guy so much like this be4!!
argh i really bth =.=

thou i knw the reasons for the way im acting.. i still does it..
i knw when u dislike someone.. u will spot them doing it..
and tell the others.. there he like this he like tt.. to prove ur right..
and i will not see if he does anything good..
i knw i knw i knw..
argh really pek cek and easily irritated these days..
some of u will jus think pms la..
lol anything la

hah.. i was actually happy when im feeling sick.
really happy.
im a bit crazy but i still tink its smth to be happy abt.
LOL
if it gets worse.. of cos better.. HEHEHEE
for some reasons.. if i told u.. or if u get my meaning ;)

i really looking forward to go for a big celebration in DEC aft my intern
WAHHHH i wanna plan smth leh.
shall we?
make me busyyyy.. give me smth to look forward to..

haiz. many times i feel im really pathetic.
to think of it.. i dun hv frens who can stay out all night long with me~
no frens who can celebrate occassions and countdown together..
no frens to meet up for no reason..
no frens who can talk crap with me over at each others hus..
no frens who can do wad frens does..
hah. did i not mix well enuff or izzit im unlucky.
not say i dun hv good frens.. but sometimes i jus wish..
it would be good if i have them..
just like my sisters.. getting trouble together with their frens..
jus spend the nite doing nth..
meet up talk and eat and jus slack.
haiz tink its jus one word - envy.

hais wadever =.=
cos i didnt hv any.

lalalaa.. ending off.
byebye =.=

2009-08-31T23:22:00.004+08:00

For the whole of today,
tears kept filling my eyes..
heart sunk deeply..
feeling helpless and hopeless
will i ever end my own life?
do i even have the courage to?
wan to be happier..
wads anti depressant?
will it help?
can i have sleeping pills..
to make me slp and not to think anymore.
mayb one day, i cld even make use of it.

Happy Birthday Daddy

2009-08-30T22:21:00.003+08:00

I hope u enjoyed.
hope everyone enjoyed.

*sry previous post removed

Wake me up when December ends

2009-08-26T22:23:00.003+08:00

waiting for the day to come..
when i can say..
Had a hard year.. and im glad its all over.

no idea why i had a wierd time in toilet today..

nearly fell twice..
broke my nail..
scratched off my skin on my neck while trying to bathe faster..

my right middle toe nail is feeling really numb right now!
feels like the nail is going to drop off anytime!
awww.

wanna go for a hair cut hopefully by this week!

gonna find a new bag and a jeans.

hais. sad la.. December :(

我是应该勇敢的追求自己的梦想吗? 需要勇气，机会，鼓励，和支持。:(

2009-08-25T23:32:00.007+08:00

Hello.

7th week of attachment.. and 16 more to go :(
how saddening..
have been listening to Lollipop songs for 50 mins on the train.. and 50 mins back for the 1st whole month! haha. recently changed to listen Fan Wei Qi songs on my way there. but still lollipop on my way back! hmm am i dragging too much? lol

my body is deteriorating day by day.. physically, mentally and internally.

birdie made this for me ^^

who is actually there for me?

how does dreams reflect our life? opposite or true?

Hate myself

2009-08-08T00:57:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone,

posted this cool tingy on facebook few weeks ago..

please put on ur earpiece/headphones!

Despaired.. Really shag.. attachment past 1 mth..

and its till 20th Dec. really wish, everything didnt happened.

how devastated im feeling right now..

i wonder who understands..

how much i wish i can change everything.

damn damn helpless..

i have never ever felt so helpless like this be4.

helpless till i wish i could die to get away from all these

jus bcos i cant run away from it..

i know i have to face it

but i don't want

keep telling myself it will be over soon

yet everyday, every second.. feels so slow

torturous

:'(

Accept or Decline

2009-08-06T22:14:00.003+08:00

Izzit a bad or good thing to learn how to speak out for myself?
WHY it seems like im the bad person here?
so did it ever come across ur mind why am i hurting his pride knowingly?
seriously his attitude and the way he pushes blames, pushes stuffs and everything to me..
seriously ridiculous!!
i knw its not all his fault not knowing how to do..
but the attitude facing this is totally.. ZZZ
looking at the newspaper when im teaching, wanting to cool down when i wanna explain stuffs.. and saying that he understands and aft a few hours ltr, went back to c if its done, and he tells me tt he dunno how to do.. so? dunno how to ask? so dunno how to do can go facebook and whatever web to relax? zzz.. ahh really bth.. dun make me look like im the bad one.. when actually u pushed things too far..

argh seriously bth. bth theres nth the tchers can do..
bth they nv locate us properly. bth they give excuses.
yes, there are many work to do with so much students to handle..
but why does tings turn out to be so bad!
oh so is this oso my bad? for being so unlucky for my year 3..
with a partner like this, with a group i did not want to be in..
with no choice.. AT ALL

why huh? why didnt i make the decision to quit sch and learn wad i wanted during the first year. ya and i can ans myself.. cos need a diploma cert.. oh ok so i stayed.. continued.. and try my best.. oh and this is my last year.. and yes.. i must tell myself again.. its already the last year! so everyone, including myself, tell me to jus tahan.. oh shit its already the last year and u cant possibly give it up. YES YES YES i understand.. and theres really NOTHING i can do.. to CHANGE anything.. the only thing i could do is to ACCEPT EVERYTHING.. to accept that in life, there are many things which is out of ur way.. and u jus hav to live with it, and tell urself its experience and there are many ppl out there who have worse experience out there.. and me, is considered lucky enuff.. to be able to study.. to have a complete family.. to have a home, to not worry if there are clothes to wear, if there is food to eat.

haiz.
ok
life
really
SUCK
to
the core

and.

i hate
my
year 3
life
to the core as well

i
cant
make
decisions

right.

jus smile ok? jus smile.
dun be call as a cry baby
how old liao still cry cry cry
think ppl pity u?

oh yeah, how much u cry, oso nobody come to help u.

Rainie!

2009-08-03T23:33:00.008+08:00

Hello!

Last Sat went to 杨丞琳半熟宣言音乐会 at POWERHOUSE, St James Power Station. hehes! went with the rainieday fanclub! and really thanks to the club that im able to see rainie in person, for my very first time! have to thank birdie as well.. cos i asked her to accompany go.. haha! and its really a good spot.. as we were standing all the way at the front.. hehe! rainie is really pretty and cute in person!! sings really well :D

Pictures are mostly uploaded in Facebook! So click here to view it! loll

One of the video i recorded! 暧昧~ Didnt record the front few songs she sang~ and uploading all videos take really long! so, this is the only video i uploaded :D a bit shaky thou.. cos my hand really tired =.=

Yeah~ wish i can see Lollipop - esp Wang Zi!! in this near distance as well! aww when will they be coming to Singapore~ Wang Zi~~ ^^

Really miss 模范棒棒糖 a lot! sighs!

Aww. cant stand it! Attachment is so damn long. :(

我要变成硬柿子. 痞子英雄

2009-07-26T15:43:00.003+08:00

Just finished watching 我要变成硬柿子

this drama really nice..

so funny.. so sad..

hehe.. thou not a new drama, but its still very nice..

before this show, i oso watched finish 痞子英雄..

lols, both the same main actress.. :D

Feeling really bored like theres nth to do..

Yet dun wanna weekdays to come at all..

but i wld rather nth to do.. than to...... =.=

someone please save me

2009-07-20T23:13:00.003+08:00

Wish someone could tell me this is all just a nightmare.
When i wake up, everything is over.
So lost facing these..
So helpless..
Thinking why all these so unfair..
Dun need these..
And not given a choice..
Yet i cant end it all
Why do i have to
keep crying over this.
do u knw how helpless am i
how much how much i wan to end it all

At Least

2009-07-13T23:34:00.003+08:00

haiz..
today was my first day of attachment..
located at JURONG.. and yeah, till.. i tink somewhere Dec..
today, feet was really painful, and so much tings left unsettled..

feel super broke.. really broke and dry..
the feeling of poor really sucks..

no idea why im having a little sore throat when i was at the office..
oh lucky i didnt continue my level 2 course this mth..
if not i will really be very shag.. and BROKE
considering to continue after attachment and mp finishes..

happy ting was, i seriously tink MeiHuey's birthday cake was deliciousss! haha..
no idea if others feel the same way..
one ting tt came into my mind immediately was to buy it for birdie on her bday. LOL
but i have no idea if she likes it.. but.. lol tings cannot be i say le count..

another ting was tt i finally joined lollipop sg fanclub! hehe! and i bought their concert tee.. despite being so broke. so i really do hopee they come to Singapore.. not very sure if MFBBT is ending.. if it really stops.. really sian.. cant c wang zi :( if u realized, i added channel v's webby on the left navigations.. woo.com.. and their forum.. ohoh!

2nd last happy ting was.. i finally bought my first working flats! just now.. really wanna thank darling.. for not saying a word at all.. accompanying me look for shoes and shirts.. for work.. well, lastly..

bought a new cap! my very first own cap! hehe! its really cute!! lol.. wanted to buy lollipop's cap.. but....... for a few reasons, i didnt.. which includes trying to save money thou i bought the shirt =.=!!

Feel like eating Marche.. haha.. kind of addicted.. after 2 tries.. :D

Just finished typing my short sip journal~ shall try harder tml bout the exercise tt we were given.. hope everything will be fine.. really worrying too much..

shall have an early slp..
another tiring day tml..
good nitex!!

Boys Over Flowers

2009-07-07T16:12:00.007+08:00

Hello!
Long time no blog :D
Bought a new lappy.. and sold my old lappy :D
And still finding buyer for Fujitsu 6 cell extra battery unopened..

Had little sleep these days.. cos i was watching Korean Boys Over Flowers~~ haha.. i believe many ppl already watched it.. started watching on Sunday night.. and i just finished the whole show.. hahas! and it endedddddd :'( really nice~~ and felt tt its nicer than jap version.. really one of the addictive korean drama :D this 2, 3 days i was like staring my lappy, eat and slp.. hahaa.. sun night watched till 5am.. and last nite watched till 8am.. loll.. really bth myself.. and now i am really tired.. wanna watch wang zi!! their concert at hongkong ended.. found a few videos in youtube.. loll.. wondering when r they coming to SG!! i wish i wish i can talk to wang zi face to face.. haha.. n i am really thinking too much.. shall watch ytd's bang bang tang tonite~

Da Jie's wedding photos are uploaded in facebook.. can take a look at my photos or any 3 of my sisters photos.. lol..

attachment is starting next monday.. so many doubts still.. scared.. but hope everything will be fine.. and by the way, its at JURONG.. zzzzzzzzzzz

gonna find some korean dramas to watch be4 my intern starts..

韩版花样男子 Boys Over Flowers (Korean) really nice ;)

<3 Wang Zi

2009-06-14T23:24:00.007+08:00

Wangzi~~~ shuai dai le!! HEHEHE

Wangzi new hairstyle..

Finding Lollipop fan club.. but really dunno how to find.. how to join :(
If anyone got news bout them coming to Singapore, PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!
thanks!!! LOL!

Wangzi and Ao Quan dancing Super Junior Sorry sorry..

Haha didnt want to post the acting part cos wangzi was a little over.. =x

hehes! nice!! anyway finished Hei Tang Qun Xia Zhuan - 黑糖群俠傳 - The Legend of Brown Sugar Chivalries ytd.. very nice!! haha it was even better for me cos wangzi the male lead.. haha..

ok anyway i passed my singing exam.. :D it was a big relief cos i finally can eat and drink whatsoever i want.. and i finally ate KFC on tt night i finished my exam. haha! oh and mango sago @ bugis as well.. HEHES!

spent my birthday with darling at Marche.. the food is really really nice!! omggg wanna go back there again ;) oh but nth much, cos i slpt really LATE the night before doing project.. :( woke up really late on my birthday.. but afterall, the project is over so just forget abt it =.= another project to chiong.. zzz.. a few birthday pics are uploaded in facebook.. so refer there :D hehe =x

dar and i bought Sony T90 camera during IT fair on friday.. thou didnt got the free gift we wanted, but we still bought it cos the prices were lowered.. there were many pics taken so far ^^ HEHEHE! will post it someday :D

oh and i shall end here.. :D

WANGZI WANGZI WANGZI!!!

ps. wanna fly to Taiwan someday to see Wangzi! =p

I wish

2009-06-08T03:32:00.003+08:00

I thought things will be better.
Doesnt seem so.
haiz.. wads wrong with me..
project not finished,
and how am i suppose to go slp
and enjoy my day?

feel like this is
my worst birthday :'(

really tot..
i could post smth happy today.
how i wished..

h a p p y

2009-06-06T00:41:00.003+08:00

Stress. Like i always say, when can all these be over?
Why do we have to face so much stress, never ending stress..
Is death the only way to end it all?

There are always times when we cant choose..
and the only way is to accept it..
hais, why cant human be just be happy, satisfied..

my heart.. really very xin ku.. keep forcing myself again and again to do it.. and tell myself it will be over.. and the other side, i know it will never end.. have to do it.. nvm, just some things going thru my mind..

thou its the start of 2 weeks break, i still have assignments to do.. no matter how unwilling i am, i still have to do it.. seriously miss my shows very much.. its for days and days i cant get to watch shows.. thou i really hate myself for doing this, i watched a few shows since i got home from school.. hais.. if really mean to chiong the project all night long, let it be.. really give up from having so much stress.. and dunno why am i adding stress to myself..

getting irritated from every little things.. and really have no idea how to celebrate my bday.. and yes, even i have to get stress over my bday.. so i really have no idea at all why i keep adding so much stress to myself.. dunno when i shld celebrate with my family.. cos my sis is not gonna be in SG on my bday.. so i keep thinking am i able to finish my project on Sunday or not.. will my family agree to it? can i request for wad i wanna eat? but my parents are going to eat similar food the day be4.. or shld i just stick to ordering kfc and pizza like always? wad can i do on my bday? will i hv enuff $$? will dar enjoy? will everyone be happy? shld i ask? or shld i not? wad if its gonna be a disappointing one? i must really tell myself its okay.. its okay.. i shldnt shldnt shldnt ask for too much.. and i shldnt shldnt shldnt expect much..

how am i suppose to stop myself from eating food that it going to hurt my throat? will it be able to pass the first part? will i do badly? will i make any mistake? why i just cant get control over myself?

haiz.. just when can i stop adding stress abt everything to myself.. when huh when?

just wanna break free from everything..
ahh really hate this post.
i really dunno.. for all the qns everyone ask..
just dun ask me anything anymore.. i dunno

TIRED

2009-06-05T00:07:00.003+08:00

WAH
After so long, this is not gonna be a nice post as i will be complaining how bad my week was.. CHIONGING projects for days and days.. really stressful and much work to do.. went Eunice hus overnight to chiong proj.. didnt slp well.. slpt at 3 and woke up at 7 to continue.. den went to JM hus to chiong again.. and slpt at 5 plus.. woke up early to continue again.. and last night, slpt at 6am+ and woke up at 9 plus 10.. zzzzz.. yes, and continue with projects again.. omgg

and u know how much problems i faced? zzzz.. yes firstly was the installation problem which faced by my frens as well.. AND my own lappy crash and everything jus simply stopped working.. after reformatting 2 times, really bwg and dunno wad to do.. brought to fujitsu and seems like nth can done.. argh so decided to reformat AGAIN and did not install any of my project applications..

hais.. used dar's lappy to do my project instead and caused his lappy to kena this virus called smth like petite which will crash ALL .exe files. ZZZZZZZZZ and tt day was at jm hus.. and i really really dunno why everything is crashing.. glad tt dar brought his reformatting cd all the way to Sengkang.. if not theres nth i can do AT ALL..

project sucks and made my life in a mess.. improper meals and sleep.. jus reached home from lesson and im really really tired. really GLAD tt tcher extended trif submission date. if not i really.... zzz no need to slp le.. keep telling myself everything will soon be over..

but it has not, and its still long.. :( nv watch lollipop and my shows for very long already. hais. pls ahhhhh let it be over...

dun wanna spend the first second of my birthday doing project.
my eyes are closing. and realy wanna upload some photos next time.
too tired to end properly. nitex

sing.

2009-05-16T00:07:00.003+08:00

Seriously thinking why am i still awake right now?!
LOL
finally 2 reports are handed up today :D
and i did not even sleep last nite..
tts why i really dun und y am i still so awake..
but i was seriously tired in the morning. didnt want to go slp bcos it feels really sucky when i wake up.. so im quite amazed that this is the longest i have ever nt slpt!
came home to watch my shows on youtube!! oh and finally!! miss my shows so much.. hehe.. still in love with wang zi :)

actually i wanna say more.. but kind of lazy to phrase them all..
find this post really wierd =.=
anyway hope my throat recovers.. lots of mucus in my nose and flames in my throat.. wanna them to disappear.. wanna catch up with new songs :D

non-stop

2009-05-12T08:27:00.004+08:00

Aww so long didnt update my blog.
Just now saw a worm crawling on the floor when i was at my house downstairs..
The moment i saw it.. i stopped i dunno what to do..
Didnt want any passerby to see me acting wierd so i called darling and walked to my lift through the carpark thou there was cars as it was time for working adults..
And darling said..
Its just a stick, brown stick that the wind is blowing..
ZZZ
and he asked me to go back and c properly.. =.=!!
AHH the image keep flashing in my mind like the other time..
cant stop thinking abt it..
and ltr going to sch will hv to walk past it..
so, i shall walk the carpark again :(

haiz.. aft all the attempt to avoid, its still useless..
why oh why will i face such problems..

the thing is, i dun even dare to run past it..
its such a small thing and i am so big!!
even i also dun understand why am i so afraid..

anyways, a new addictive game - Restaurant City in facebook.. HAHA!
Dar fren was the one.. who not really intro-ed me..
but instead asked me to go accept his trade.. hahaha..

this week really suck cos theres so much projects to do.
ahhhhhh
sometimes, we just dun hv the choice..
no matter if u know how or not..
no matter if ur scared or not..
you just have to do it..

HAIZZZZZZZZZZZ

till the end of this week, guess i will feel really restless..
like i always say, i really wish for all these to be over.
really tiring to be living.

be4 i end, hope darling rashes can recover soon :(
hopefully some pictures in the next post..
tried Manpuku ytd.. very delicious and smells great BUT exp..
and wolverine movie was really great!!! ;)

New love ^^

2009-04-28T02:04:00.002+08:00

omgggg.. 王子王子王子~~

so cute haha.. hes so embarrassed!! =x

棒棒堂

love 六棒

haha.

so silly

2009-04-27T01:44:00.002+08:00

when can i not wear specs anymore??
ahh~~ if only my eyes r not that sensitive, im still wearing contact lenses :(
SADED!

have chosen a few songs for my exam..
however still not sure which is the best..
surprisingly, theres no rainie's song in my options..
haha.. cos of some reasons.. =x

when will i able to go overseas.. with darling to play~

so moody these days..
just dun feel like doing anything..

shld get more pretty clothes..
the most dunno how to dress up among 4 sisters..
including my mei mei :(
aww.. tt includes make-up..
wahhh~~~

thinking if i shld consider DS instead of PSP. since its too exp and troublesome :(
hais.. really broke these days!
and so disappointed with myself..
after all i did.. it still didnt make any difference..
yet it got worse.. :'(
i really do mind a lot..
so why do u still have to say it out..
when will u ever listen to me when i say im serious..
sick and tired whenever i say im serious but ur still playing around..

ARGH.

feel like crying..
for all that i think too much..

Three "very cute" Ulcers

2009-04-23T23:52:00.002+08:00

Hello
School started and feeling really tired. guess this is wad most ppl feels.. just keep thinking when these will be over.. haha.. cos im not interested~ ahh.. hoping to do smth else when i graduate. but still, hope i can hav a smooth results to graduate..

lol. my English really suck. argh

feeling that my throat is going to recover soon. so lets just hope it will recover really soon!! ulcer doesn't look good. cos i hv 3 ulcers in my mouth :( thats a really really sad thing.. so ke lian.. :( 1 on my left.. and 2 new ones on my right. SIGHHH!! my poor right ulcers.. they have to suffer cos i have to bite tt side.. as my left one cannot risk biting it.. super pain.. at least my right ulcers give me consistent pains =.=

hv already tried to avoid chicken as much as i can but its really hard when i eat out almost everyday. so that includes fried and oily stuff :( so i have gurgled with salt, drink honey water, drink woods, drink chinese medicine, apply watermelon powder.. and so i hope this can be over soon as well.

gonna buy some stuffs online. so, there goes my money again. haha.. hv been spending lots of time at Downtown Ehub playing arcade with darling as we only need to pay $10.70 for $21.40 worth of credits. cos of the nebo member and vouchers ;) slightly sick of it already. haha. there is no street fighter there~~

these days really warm but few days ago was really cold cos it actually rained! haha. cool~ ytd nite was at downtown and the wind was REALLY STRONG! i tot tsunami coming.. LOL.. seriously i was a little scared :( and dar and i was heading to changi v as we wanted to eat supper. but the wind was so strong that the road was full of branches big bunch of leaves falling.. it was like war over there =.= feeling so unsafe, we decided nt to eat already =.=

forgot my motive for bloggin now. so i shall end here. haha.
kind of meaningless post i have today.. =x

oh yah last thing.. i seriously dunno which song to choose for my exam :(

school is at 10am later. so i shall go watch my shows be4 i slp ;)
nitex nitex!! ^^

2009-04-20T22:34:00.002+08:00

So regret telling her about my ulcer and my sore throat.
YES. i am too stubborn and huo gai for not taking care them.
But when did u not mention about those EVERY SINGLE TIME i told u tt im not feeling well. Really simply make me dun even wanna make u knw anything about me. Even as my mum, i dun even dare to let u knw tt im sick. Just dun wanna hear u repeat all those things that make me so REGRET to tell u.

And u said u regret giving birth to all of us. YES u may be saying it out of anger. but it hurts me so much that how i wish i didnt heard it at all. the 2 of u just make me wanna blast music into my ears so i cant hear anything at all. and u wont knw.. and im doing it EVERYTIME u all start.

i dont care if my ear damage. REALLY sick and tired.

because of her, i understand the 2 of u are really really in very very BAD TEMPER. it even makes me so scared going home to get scolded by the 2 of u. can u all just simply STOP STOP STOP!!

HAPPY 3 Years 10 Months darling!!!

2009-04-19T00:06:00.005+08:00

ARGH
pissed!

Cant upload 2 of the songs in imeem and therefore cant update my playlist :(
Cant login TP web for 2 days already :(
but thanks to jw for sending me the timetable.. ;)
Pet Society seem to load forever and end up telling me theres an error!!!
My phone is some sort spoilt.
It hangs
Auto format my messages! - Not touching the others..
And today realised the playing of music spoilt.
BUT
my ringtone and message tone still works perfectly =.=!!
already heartbroken when it dropped :(
for the very first time :(

had my hair cut.
and terrible weather today.
DAMN WARM ARGH!

tried out my sister's hula hoop and sweat a little.
which made me really sticky =.=
sticky even after bathing!!
ahh really bth.
watched ong bak 2 online just now. loaded the day the earth stood still.
and most likely watching wall e.. tink another day? lols

one of the jacket i bought.. 2 of my sisters say nice.. but my mei say typical ah lian design. LOLS. dun wan ah lian~~ ahh.. anyway it costs $10 only. haha. most of my clothes r really cheap. thou i buy a little more exp ones at times.

went to the new shopping mall at bugis. and 3pm i see ppl queueing for Aaron Kwok when he will only be performing at 8pm. but anyways, i tink other celebrities shld hv much much earlier ones. haha.. the arcade there got really big screen and their street fighter is ps3 version. got one guy, hes really really pro in catching bears =.= and his gf jus simply keep them in a big plastic bag. ahhh~~ i nv caught any be4!! :(

anyways, aft saying so much,
do u knw wad day today is?
HEHEHEHE!!

Its darling and my
3 years 10 months anniversary!
:DDD
however, we dun hv any plans for tml :(

shall end this post with wad i've done today.
aft my lesson, i met up with my 2nd sister and we went Tamp 1 and she actually told me she forgot today is Saturday tt there will be so much more ppl. headed to Challenger as we wanna get new mouses.. haha.. choose choose choose, nv buy =.= went to Courts and its more exp compared to Challenger member price.. so we had Ajisen for lunch.. and went back Challenger to finally buy our mouse which took us 1 hr to choose.. HAHAHA! my mouse now very cute.. tiny.. white and pink ;) HEHE

oh yah yah, wanna mention another thing.. the other day went to bugis with darling.. saw dollhouses in OG!! WOAHHHHHHHHHHHH super super nice! really cant stand it.. wish wish wish can bring them all home~~ but dunno where to put :( most imptly.. no $$.. aww..

ok, so finally.. i shall end and watch my shows and play my games..
oh yea, if u read the news, somebody jumped out the aeroplane and become minced meat on the ice =.= gross.. wads in his mind =.=zz.. causing the aeroplane to make emergency landing cos the door broke..

haha, this is wad my mum told me. im lazy to read. =x
so, take care everyone..
my flu, sore throat and ulcer have not recover!! ARGH

F L U

2009-04-17T21:01:00.003+08:00

hihi,

morning activities were not done because of laziness.. haha!

had a really tough time last nite to get myself fall aslp!!

omgggg it was terrible..

and sadly, i have not cut my hair yet :(

intend to dye my hair at home with my sister! hehe!

smth which i nv done before - myself..

hahaha

happy thing was the shopping i had just now!

bought a few clothes..

glad tt darling had bought a shirt as well~

too bad didnt got a shirt tt i wanted.. bcos not enuff cash..

so had a small quarrel with dar abt it..

but anyways, we both got very bad flu today.

and hes already sleeping now..

hais. really sians cos my dad is in very very bad temper these days.

REALLY BAD!!

cos of some things..

wanna move my lappy into the room later.

so wun get to hear him shouting..

ARGH

ok because of tt i wanna end here. =.=

really really cant stand it.

my mouse spoilt so wanna get a new one.

tml's lesson homework is done!

kind of chim for me becos i have not done it be4..

hope my flu wun affect much tml..

or better, hope it recovers..

my holiday is kind of sad cos of my flu, sore throat and ulcers. ARGH

when will they recover?!!??!?!

17 Again

2009-04-17T00:59:00.005+08:00

Thats PiPi haha!

Watched 17 Again.. VERY NICE. really!!

its funny plus Zac Efron is really handsome.. hehe!

The new show tt is out - Taken..

I have already watched it months ago online..

I tot tt was supposed to be an old show.

Shockingly it wasnt. its EXACTLY the same! LOLS!

sch is starting next monday. AND intern 6 July. which is a really sians ting. too bad i missed Shopaholic so intend to wait for a better quality online. ;) watched 2 shows the other day with dar - Shinzuku Incident and The Sniper. hmm, story is kind of hard to understand for me. lols. but anyway ok lah..

just finished chocolate. and, June will have my level 1 exams. so, still wondering wad will i be doing.. o.0

collected my spree clothes and waiting for my baggy~ hehe!!

phone is now kind of spoilt cos i dropped it.. when i was half awake. really made me totally awake. :( watched Lollipop and Blackies till 5am ytd nite. lols. no idea why so late.. =x not slpy at all.. but still hv to slp.. hungry all the time~ hahaha

really long since i blogged.

but anyways, really hoping to hv a pink psp. which is still in my plan.. smth which darling really not being supportive and agreeing of. :( of cos, he have his reasons. but still, in consideration.

Little Big Planet is really fun and i love the naked character with his black specs!! really C U T E! but there were some maps which is a little scary.. and some were really hard to collect all the items. and there was one jumping thingy, really cmi =.= another really fun game is Rub-A-Dub! wheehee! tt game oso really cute! ducklings~~~ but only played the demo, hoping to play and break the timing for all the rounds..

oh and finished the Ping Pong show~ not bad but for me, hoped to have a more interesting ending thou.. waiting for Star Awards 2009~ haha.. hope Dai Yang Tian gets the newcomer awards.. just like so many others..

ok, gonna have an early slp tonite. cos there are activities for dar and i during later on~ wheehee! have been having quarrels these days so hope it will be better for us :(

so take care all~

and cya my classmates on Monday~

nitex nitex!! :D

BY2-我知道

2009-04-07T12:31:00.002+08:00

Hehe, really gonna go buy their album when its out~~

期待 :)

The guy in the MV quite handsome. Hes in the show 比賽開始 main actor. WOAH should i consider to watch? lols.. By2 this song is that show's ending song.. and Ah Du's song the starting song.

Okays, anyway i have set a target for myself. hehe but its a secret wad it is about. hopefully i can achieve it by June~ which is quite hard =.= just don't want to give myself excuses to set the date later.

Ytd was watching 我愛黑澀會 for like almost the whole day. lols. cos theres so much episodes.. entertaining :D LOL! dar rather i watch shows than to play texas. well, shows i can find.. theres never ending shows for me to watch ;) LOL!

and im already loading my shows.. HEHEHE!

okok, tts all for now. still thinking if i should post tt pic up.. haha

:'(

2009-04-04T00:19:00.003+08:00

How do we know if one another is who we are really gonna be with the rest of our life?

Are we too young to be thinking this? Or should we already be thinking this?

Still thinking which thoughts of mine are naive and which are not.

But are they really?

Sometimes i really don't know if you understand, or you do.

Or am i the one thats thinking too unrealistic.

The stuffs that i am interested in, are they really childish?
Are those stuffs i shouldn't be wanting?
Are they really a waste of money?
Are they just meant for kids?
Am i the one, that the problem all lies with me?
Have all my thinking and interest all gone wrong?

Will i ever achieve what i wish for?
How can i even achieve?
Should i change?
Should i change all these thinking, interests, goals and dreams?

LOVE @ Sentosa

2009-04-02T22:17:00.003+08:00

HEHE! went to Sentosa with darling ytd after our dinner. ^^
haha actually it was me who suggested it.. we actually wanted to catch a movie but darling dun wan.. really very dark there.. except places with lightings so i was kind of scared.. i even scared darling (not on purpose) upon seeing the very huge shadow at the bridge near the Merlion. sorry darling :( really dark and we spotted ONE cockroache.. =x
overall, it was so sweet to walk around there with darling.. and dar says he wants to bring me go play during the day next time.. :D HIP HIP HORRAY!!! ^^

we had desserts @ Ah Chew after tt and i actually wanted watermelon sago but out of stock =x so no choice, its fated for me to eat my mango sago ^^ HEHEHE!!! o.0 but i was scared cos scared to have sore throat again.. so i drank a lot of water tt night. :)

most likely going for injection with my sisters on Saturday~ awww.. dunno where they injecting.. really scared :(

lastly, wanna say tt i like tt shirt i was wearing on the photos.. haha! very cute =p
i bought it online.. so ppl who shop online might hv seen this shirt. ;)

so gonna play some games. and im rather sad tt i did not satisfy darling well with his blog contents.. so we shall work on it some other time yea? ^^

tts all for today. hope my ulcer really can recover by SATURDAY!! PLEASE!!

Internet solved ;)

2009-04-01T12:38:00.003+08:00

Its.. 12:38PM now and i just woke up.. Everyone else already gone out and im alone at home. haha.. so bored. and still, my ulcer is not recovered yet. making me really eating very slow and hard to talk properly. :(

Well, ytd when i just reached home, all my sisters are at home.. and theres no internet for me to use at all.. was feeling really very bad mood cos only my eldest sis and i are willing to go simei buy the router.. but shes going out aft tt and so i had to come home myself.. my 2nd sister is going out aft tt but my mei mei so lazy dun wan to accompany me! humph! so in the end, my eldest sis took bus with me to simei. and shes rather wierd cos shes meeting her fren to eat at Aljunied.. wad a wierd store closing at 3pm.. and shes rushing for time. so when we reached simei, she drew money and left me alone to go buy :( bought chicken rice and bbt and i headed to challenger myself :( it was so hard to talk to the person cos of my ulcer. didnt even c the exact router im looking for. so in the end, bought a router @ $119. so damn expensive. arghh but theres no others.. luckily i brought extra cash if not it will be a wasted trip =.=!! argh hack care already so i just bought for the sake of using my internet. if not i really dunno how to spend my time.. haha..

reached home and set it up together with my mei. WOOHOO! finally solved :) if u wanna c the picture of my router its in my mei mei bloggy.. haha.. okay too much bout the router.. zzz

so excited for my spree items to arrive.. first time bought a skirt online. HEHE! last time always buy tops only. also bought a bag.. which my this bag is gonna spoil.. soon.. but still wanna thank my classmates for buying me this white shoulder bag last year for my bday present ^^ hehe! cant wait for the new bag to arrive~~

ToGetHer is getting more and more interesting!! ahhh someone is gonna snatch Mars away.. loll.. Farenheit really handsome.. lol.. they went to sing at Campus Superstar and i really really love Yan Ya Lun's hair!!!! omggg so niceeee hahaa.. so cute.. =p

okay, theres another new show coming up - "Calling Big Star" casting MIKE HE!!! woooo!! Bonnie's love.. dunno if she still likes him.. haha.. eh the story of the show kind of nice.. hmm and another show "Knock knock loving you" by Dylan and Ming Dao.. hmm not very sure nice not.. =x

okay anyway, still excited bout new shows coming up :D esp Mike He's.. hehehe!

okay, tts all for today, oh yah and i taught my sister dota ytd. LOL!

kk take care all~ ;)

OUCH

2009-03-30T02:03:00.002+08:00

Ulcer is killing me :(
So uncomfortable for the whole day!!
and i cant bite properly.. :(
eat super slow..
talk oso cannot talk properly..
sighs!
and it grew right beside my teeth.. surrounding my left very last bottom tooth..
but why does the top hurts as well? :(
it hurts so much..
its affecting my tooth as well.. made me feel like im having ulcer and toothache at the very same spot..
so much discomfort..
SOBB
plss go awayyyy

im never contented :(

2009-03-29T00:45:00.003+08:00

Wahh
I know many ppl are saying how hot the weather is these days..
REALLY BTH ARGH!!
really super damn hot!!

anyway, had a lonely MRT eventually :(
bought KFC home for lunch. which i dun even feel like eating it just now =x
but i just bought it anyway..
today's lesson was ok but i keep wanna cough.. :(
had some problem with my ez link card tapping in.. was feeling so lost but luckily saw my classmate Yi Wen as she told me to go the counter ask.. haha.. feeling stupid cos i dunno y at tt point of time nv tot of it.. =x the fault was actually cos when i tap out, their gate spoil.. which already had green light and the door was open. so i tot i had already tapped out. which it didnt lah.. loll..

ok other than tt, have been rotting at home since i reached home as i keep playing texas.. =x zax joined me for a few rounds of texas as well.. haha.. really boreddd.. ahh~~ nobody date me out.. lol..

looked at one of the shoe spree.. awww.. soooo pretty!! but i have nv buy any shoe online.. wad if it dun fit :( realised its been really really long since i last went shopping.. (with money) and buying clothes.. haha.. wah sad. im always in shirts, shorts, slippers.. zzz.. the next shopping shall wear a dress or skirt ^^ den i shall hope darling can take some pictures with me.. loll..

:( my ulcer hurts and it grew on a place very uncomfortable.. aww okay.. i knw all ulcers are uncomfortable.. lol..

feeling tired but i just dun like to slp so early cos i tink its a waste of time.. but i hate to think tt way cos i knw its not good for me :(

ok.. today no pictures.. lazy.. loll..
shall go back play texas.. zzzz
so hot!!
why Rain nv come and visit me :(

New Bloggy Picture!

2009-03-28T01:27:00.006+08:00

Hihi!
Just finished editing my blog skin!
hahaha.. actually no much diff.. made it become like my bf's blog layout..
made the space smaller too..
is the picture on top nice? o.O

anyway tml Earth Hour.. will u all be closing ur lights? haha..
look at my tagboard.. got ppl tag the Earth Hour.. lol..

just now reached home and pestered my mei mei to accompany me to take the MRT together.. LOLS!! i can see tt shes irritated by me =x but tml i shall wake her up.. =PpPp sim yan teen!! pls pei wo take MRT :D since shes going out as well.. so hopefully i can take with her.. so i wun be so lonely.. :(

had my Salmon Pepper Rice for dinner again :D HEHEHE! nv get sick of it.. :p
but dar had his dinner at the food court.. he dun seem to wanna eat pepper lunch with me.. :(
but anyways, thanks dar.. ur so sweet ^^ hehehe!!
oh yah, and he blogged again :D so happy that hes blogging frequently.. :D

shall buy a new bag for myself online.. ;)

i have an ulcer in my mouth.. :(
so sad..
y everytime got problem one :(
qihui ah qihui.. must take care urself ah..

wanna go Sentosa and Kbox.. hehe.
but i dun wan to get tanned.
smth which i wanted long time ago..
but not already for a long time..
wanna get fairer :D hehe

when my throat recover, i can sing as much as i wan again!!
really really cant wait..

just now played facebook games too much.. for the whole aftnoon.. and my hand were so so so so numb! was trembling and my shoulders were so tired.. but there was nth i can do.. only to play games.. was really really bored.. ahh~~

was a very very warm day.. :(

okay, shall end here today. shall play somemore facebook games be4 i slp. hahaha..
nitex nitex :D

that night dar n i was discussing where shld we go..
and i tot we were going home..
BUT he turned to express way and i was like..
huh? where we going..?
den he say.. tot u say u wanna go Sentosa?
haha.. i was like really ah? i tot u dun wan?
cos i suggested Sentosa but he said it was far
and he dun seem to wanna go.. thanks darling :D
i wanted to sit at the beach and stroll around there, taking pictures..
BUTtt :( when we were reaching Sentosa, it rained :(
jiu shi specially this time..
Rain come and visit me :((((((((((
when we left, on the way home, the rain stopped!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHH
seem tt it rained on purpose :(
felt really sry to dar dar :(
dui bu qi!! :(

一枝梅

2009-03-26T02:19:00.006+08:00

Hihi :D

Have completed making the picture for my new bloggy skin.. hehes! thou completed, not changing it now.. cos i am watching last episode of 一枝梅!!! WOOHOO!! so nice.. haha.. luckily today loading no much of a problem ;) very very nice show.. both young and grew up female actress r so cute and pretty!! hahas.. just now had to stop watching for awhile as my sisters wanna use the internet.. which our internet still not solved :(

not bad, another show completed within 2 days..

i wonder if i can ever have the chance to complete show in 1 day..

cos i cant stay up really late.. scared of my dad.. scared he wake up half way =x he wake up i jialat.. :( and my parents wake up early in the morning.. so i mus slp be4 they wake up :(

okays.. i will be finishing the show ltr. :D shall find other shows to watch..

oh, anyways i find one of the song for the ping pong show by Joshua and Dai Yang Tian a bit like Ding Dang Shen Tan song.. hahs.. dunno if anyone of u will think the same way..

have watched till ep 7.. and the show is ok.. watched this cos got shuai ge =x HEHEHEHE!!

oh. and i watched Marley and Me on Tues online.. not bad.. haha.. the doggy is really cute when hes still a puppy.. but the show seem the doggy grew up to be very irritating keep being so naughty.. but the back part is really very very sad.. sobs..

wanna watch Shopaholic.. and Mall Cop lols..

okay, shall end with a very cute very sweet picture.. which some of u may knw its my old blog picture.. :D

lostz-boy

2009-03-24T19:42:00.003+08:00

HALO

now watching 一枝梅 still only at ep 3.. haha..
only at ep 2 where i already cried :(
kind of tired today.. shld hv take a nap just now..

today, successfully complete changing blogskin for darling :D
so happy!! :)
thou i faced some problems i dunno how to solve :(
anyway, he finally blogged ^^
and next shall be mine. ;)

his new bloggy address: http://lostz-boy.blogspot.com/
haha

today found this very lovely nails!!
esp its My Melody!!!! oh my.. i love the thumb pink melody the most. haha..
SOOO CUTEE!! ^^
and i hv nv gone to do any menicure or pedicure be4 :(

2009-03-24T00:46:00.000+08:00

wanna change my blogskin.. again :D

知足常乐

2009-03-21T01:11:00.008+08:00

Was at Suntec just now with dar..
Had Pepper Lunch for dinner ;)
MY FAVOURITE salmon pepper rice ^^ hehehe!
nv get sick of it.. loll
walked arnd there with dar.. and really a lot tings i wanna buy but didnt buy.. =x
didnt bought anything at the end :(
but at least bought MOF strawberry ice cream :D
yummyyy ^^

many times, i feel like wanting this and tt..
but i have to tell myself to be 知足..
:(

anyway i have update my imeem playlist with new songs.. ;D
a song by danson.. hehe..
not bad ;)

my throat is stilllll not recovered :( but its recovering.. flu already recovered..
and i still cant sing properly.. really hate it..
cant go kbox :(

sad ah...

i bought the same exact baby pink strap as my 2nd sister :D hahaha.. cos its really really very nice.. awww.. suits my baby pink LG ice-cream hp :D

my house internet is still not solved yet.. still the same, only one can be connected :( and there r 4 lappies in the house.. how............................... :( realllyyyy sad.. just now my 2nd sis fren came to try and help us solve.. but still cant.. most likely getting a new router? for aft so long.. its still not solved yet.. :(

Hello Kitty dollhouse from the internet..... lovely!! ^^

made a bottle of honey water for myself..
dar fall sick also.. but not bcos of me =x
most likely cos of the dust.. tt flew and flew around him :(
get well soon :(

food are so tempting.. ahhhhh

sore throat :(

2009-03-13T23:38:00.006+08:00

Helloo

I am feeling really terrible now as i am having a really bad sore throat.. and i still have lessons tml :(

so scared that it might cause me to have fever.. feeling really nauseas for the whole day.. and again, i swallowed in my own vomit in the toilet =.= it was really gross cos wad i swallowed was strawberry cheesecake!! 超恶心!!

not referring to the cheesecake.. hahas.. its sara lee strawberry cheesecake.. really very nice! :D

guess tt sore throat is caused by several reasons..

chalet bbq, deep fried chickens, not enuff rest, and lastly.. mango sago =x

sad!! anyways, watched My bloody valentines 3D with dar and chan chan..

but seriously i didnt watch much =.= cos i too scared.. even with my eyes closed, my hair all standing when i can imagine wads happening, just by listening to the sound.. and theres one part.. which i accidentally saw.. make me really wanna vomit =.= so wanting to knw wad happened, i keep asking dar.. LOL! when the screen is right in front of me..

have been dota-ing since i downloaded the game.. with dar and his sis.. lol.. still kind of noob so.. i will continue to learn ;)

getting tired easily these days.. so i keep having headaches.. :( really 很心苦 :(

didn't go to IT fair cos i have no money to buy camera :(

i have heard by2's new song.. quite nice.. looking forward for their 2nd album release.. :D

Hello, Miss! - Finished

2009-03-09T01:15:00.003+08:00

Helloooo!
Finished another korean drama - Hello, Miss!

hehehe!
too bad the handsome guy this time is a little bad =x

same lead actress.. very pretty.. lols.. prettier in this show than in My Girl..
BUT My Girl is nicer than Hello, Miss!

Next im gonna watch should be 一枝梅~ there seem to be lots of good comment.. :D

Chalet later!~

HEHES! go slp le.. nite nitex!

Haiz

2009-03-07T23:21:00.000+08:00

My Girl - Finished!

2009-03-06T02:39:00.002+08:00

Hihi,

Finished My Girl!!!
VERY very VERY very VERY NICE!!! hehe.. i like ;)

well well, now that i have finished the show, i hate the feeling cos theres nth else i can keep watching non-stop.. ARGH! this goes the same to all the other nice dramas i have watched! some other korean dramas like.. Full House, Witch Yoo Hee, Goong, Autumn tales, delightful girl choon hyang.. some ok ones like.. A Love to kill.. stairway to heaven, tree of heaven.. and many more~~ lols.. heard abt Hello Miss, coffee prince, my name is kim sam soon, im sorry i love you, all in, wonderful life.. and many others.. considering which to watch.. haha.. love dramas to the max ^^

so anyway, im feeling really sad before i finds another nice drama to watch.. :(

Lee Dong Wook in this show is really handsome.. zzz bth!! LOL

not only is he handsome.. but the show is oso really nice! the story funny and sad.. :D really sad that i have finished the showww~~~~~ continue plss.. :(((

anyway, just now went CS and bought some hair accessories which i chosed only pink ones and yellow ones.. ZZZ really bth myself =.= these days really in mood for bubble tea.. drinking passion fruit red tea everyday.. =.= i rem this flavour is last time when im still a pri sch kid, got one each-a-cup aunty told me that it tastes smth more concentrated like peach red tea. haha!

okok, lastly, very important!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEI MEI!!!

hope u enjoy ur celebrations with ur frens and ur bf.. haha!! :D

alright, shall update again~

My Girl, Lee Dong Wook!

2009-03-05T16:14:00.004+08:00

Just finished UP workshop..

hangman was fun =x

LOL

Ytd watched 11 episodes of My Girl! from day till midnight.. haha..

really addicted.. very very nice!

Lee Dong Wook
really very shuai!! handsome!! LOL

wanna watch other shows he act in.. :D

haha. actually the whole point of this post is just to say he is really shuai dai le.. =x

Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DA JIE!

tml is my mei mei birthday~ LOLL

New skin :)

2009-03-04T09:17:00.007+08:00

愛就宅一起

This part really funny! haha.. Realised didnt blog much abt the shows that im watching.. this is one of them.. of course, Rainie show i wun miss out de ^^ hehe.. but i missed her when she came to Singapore.. :( but anyway, this show really nice :D kind of sad when rainie and the guy hugged.. when she cried the guy oso cry :(

Another show is Starlit.. 心星的淚光.. my current blog song is the ending song.. lol.. the show oso very nice.. Jerry very shuai in the show.. HEHE!

Also watching another korean show.. My Girl.. the show very long le =.= and one of the guy inside oso handsome.. HAHAHA!!

Went KBox with dar on Monday night. hehe! so long didnt go sing le.. really happy and shuang.. but darling was tired so we left before 2am.. but still, thanks darling!! :D

I just finished my Mac hotcake breakfast.. muahaha.. really full.. still drinking my milo..

say byebye to my old layout~ and as u can c.. i have a new layout for my bloggy.. but its actually kope from my mei + my 2nd sis de layout.. HAHA! when i designed the blogshop that we r gonna open, both of them were like saying.. theres too many colours and too kiddy.. =.= was intending to use pink for the layout of our blogshop but they didnt want. haha. so i spent my whole night doing the blogshop layout and aft tt, i changed my own.. :D i just cant change the colour cos i really prefer this kind of combi.. yellow, pink and white :D

for some reasons, i hv removed by2's new song video.. and i dunno why i cant seem to find their first album =.= cos i wan to buy.. lolll

class chalet is on next Monday.. im kind of useless cos theres a lot of things which i dunno :( things like.. ordering, planning, calculating and stuffs..

ok shall update again.. :)

byebye

Old pics

2009-03-02T01:51:00.003+08:00

Just now browse through stomp forum and saw a post with before and after pic. lol.. and althou i knw my cheeks grew fatter, but i didnt really go and compare with my other pics.. haha.. here r a few.. i saved some of my older pics into my lappy again.. haha! if got mood next time most more.. esp neoprints.. LOL.. and i noticed some of my pics realllyyyyy ugly.. really 不喜欢!

4 sisters at our old old house.. know who is who? lol

Zoo playground~~ haha.. eh i like~ i wan go Ehub playground oso!! HEHES

in secondary sch uniform.. One of the pic i like last time.. :D

Taken by dar at the library~ forgotten if im slping or reading book.. =x

like this neoprint with dar a lot!! haha.. but he like another one =x

NS 的 dar dar.. as u can c.. last time his botak head.. :p and my face not tt chubby like now :(

sad!!

anyway, there r some stuffs which i wanna mention since ytd..

sat nite i came home and forgotten to bring my keys.. as i had dinner with my family, i didnt bring keys.. so called up my sis but shes already on bed and another was bathing.. was really desperate and freaking out at the door.. CAUSE.. theres a really longggg and big and fast and disgusting shit LIZARD.. trying to scare it away, but i am really timid and it still stayed there after moving a little here and there aft scaring it =.= i saw lizard on the floor before so i was really really afraid it would drop down or anyhow run on the floor.. really gonna cry out.. called my sister to wake up to open the door.. thou the door is opened, i still dare not run in.. cos the lizard still there :( really wanted to call my parents up but i didnt.. arghh seeing the lizard running away behind the wall, out of my sight, i quickly ran into the house :( really freaked me out.. really helpless and scared.. :(

called dar and wanted to talk abt it.. but hes not feeling well.. which i already know.. kind of upset tt he cut me off half way reminding me tt hes not feeling well.. and i dunno if im not thoughtful enough or am i too demanding or unreasonable.. just hoping i can tell this to someone and for someone to console me or smth.. but i got nth.. we hang up and cried by myself..

woke up early in the morning.. and felt much better.. went to work but the work is rather wierd.. worked with birdie.. hmm. dun tink i shld talk much details bout it here. cos.. hmm i dun tink i shld say here either =.= just.. not going to work anymore. lol..

hope to have a wonderful day ltr with darling~

realised i didnt post pics of cheek kisses.. HEHEHE! shall ask permission first =p

in addition, wanna thank Mr Yap for changing the date of the workshop for our class!! ^^ sorry for all the trouble too.. hmm and i dun tink he will read this.. haha..

ok.. Mafia wars awhile and see if i wanna slp bah.

think im gonna start dota soon~ ;) need to borrow installation disc from joel.. lol..

nitex nitex :D

Pinky's Pancake

2009-02-28T23:30:00.003+08:00

http://www.y8.com/games/Pinkys_Pancake

This game really fun.. haha.. keep playing cooking games these days.. really sian.. =x

But when will the game ever end? i play until my hand numb already still haven end ah.. =.=

Anyways, just now had dinner at Bedok North restaurant with my family and our 3 bf.. haha.. its an early celebration for my da jie and mei mei.. their bday 5 March and 6 March respectively.. haha.. ate a few times there already.. and my stomach really gonna explode.. :D

No more romantic?

2009-02-27T22:17:00.003+08:00

我就是喜欢 blur blur 的 picture.. HAHAHA

为什么 i already found a job but my mum still keep nagging me about being lazy and finding jobs.. arghh 真的受不了啦!!

气死我了!

沈琪惠

2009-02-25T21:19:00.005+08:00

大家好!

我刚刚下载了这个可以输入华语字的东西。哈哈!
因为。。。我要做一些东西 =x
秘密 :p

昨天剪了一个 $3.80 的头发。看起来真的真的很奇怪啊!
前面的头发太平了!! 看起来很像笨蛋。=.=
早就知道就不要在那里剪了啦!

我今天有一点不舒服。头很痛啊! :(
今天拿了新的眼镜。因为深度加深所以头更痛。

用华语来打字只是占时的事。
感觉好像不是这个‘占’啊。哈哈。
因为呢。。仲轩宝贝看不懂。哈哈哈哈!
你看到你的名字了吗? :D

对了! 望了说刚才伴晚的时候看到彩虹!! 很美!! 很大个!!
你有没有看到啊?

好了。今天到这里。还要读书呢!
大家要记得喝多多的白开水!

Ya Ha Ha Ha Ha

2009-02-24T16:47:00.004+08:00

Wahh
Have uploaded videos and edited my youtube account.. see here
nice? hehes ^^

Last Sat went EastPoint to see S.H.E~~ its really crowded!! and took some videos and pictures using my mei's camera~~ she uploaded some pics in her bloggy..

Wanna go kboxxx.. hehes.. anyone?

Ytd i did a very disgusting thing and tt is i swallowed down my vomit.. haha.. be4 tt, was eating $2 pack of fries.. and so the vomit really taste very potato.. LOLL! luckily didnt vomit out if not ah.. mus clean up and all.. =x

anyway, its not the first time already.. loll =x

anyone who has facebook pls accept me if u received my invitation in Mafia Wars!! hehe!! thanks :D if i didnt invite u, pls invite me.. lol.. its really lame but smth to kill time..

was finding job and hmm.. dun tink its very successful? haha..

gonna hv last paper this thursday...... 2 more daysss to holiday

collecting my new specs tml :D HEHEHE

YAY!

2009-02-21T01:32:00.004+08:00

Hello~~

Went to Cineleisure Kbox Union last Sunday 15 Feb 2009..

By2 and JJ 《新加坡E乐大赏》造势活动!

They sang, danced and played games!

I've uploaded 2 of By2's video below.. and i have JJ's video too.. but a lower quality.. cos the better quality went low batt tt day.. loll.. hmm but afterall, quality not tt good.. =.=

Was my very first time seeing them in person! and really wanna thank dar for bringing me there :D

Kinda sad tt i cant get the tickets to the Marina Bay awards.. cos they gave out quite a lot free.. but nvm.. cant be soooo greedy.. =p

anyways, start playing Mafia Wars in Facebook so if anyone plays it, please adddddd me!! haha..

made a new specs today! FINALLLYYYY

but i can only get it next week :(

my current specs is really jialat.. the colour went off and the metal part is touching my ear.. SO, my ear kept growing stuffs there even after i pluck it off.. for SO MANY TIMES! rarh! its getting worse and i finally made a new one! new colour too.. haha.. hope it don't look wierd. =x

lalala~ so, if ur interested, go hear the videos bah.. kind of long to upload.............. zzz.. got one a small part on one of their new song coming out in their new album.. if u haven heard it, go hear bahs.. :D

my own photos another time liao.. LEFT 1 MORE PAPER ^^

take care everyone!! drink fruit juices! haha..
got VITAMINS =p
byebye

By2 - 不够成熟 @ Kbox Union

2009-02-20T22:12:00.005+08:00

Exams..

2009-02-17T20:31:00.004+08:00

Haiyo.

I have no idea why the uploading of photos got problem..

Anyways, last Sunday went to Cine Kbox Union to see By2 and JJ.. hehes!
Got one guy actually told me need pass de :(
But aft i left, i went back and ask another gal.. and she let me in~~ hehes! ^^
Really happy.. and wanna thank lots to dar dar for bringing me there :D
Took some videos and pictures.. really great performance and it just look like how i see them on youtube.. when by2 perform at taiwan de videos.. haha..

Will try upload together along the pictures i wanted to upload today =.=

OH. and by2 sang a small part on one of their new song which is coming up.. :)
S.H.E. will also be in EastPoint this Sat.. and also Rainie and Jiro will be in KBox Union this Sat too.. and both the same time...... WHYYYY~~~ hoping and deciding..

haiz..

ok, tml got SWEN exam.. aft tml's paper, den left with EBM....... and it will be holidays!!! ^^ anyways called a child care centre today and...... =.=

dun wanna talk any further more.. lol
take care everyone :D

Control

2009-02-12T00:13:00.003+08:00

Hello

Currently having flu.. my nose are blocked :(
nose is very uncomfortable and painful :(

Didnt realise that so long nv blog le..

Last week was really fierce cos my MSYD stayed over at Eunice's house and chiong the project throughout the whole night.. actually thot can finish earlier as 6pm was the submission time.. met some errors when consolidating.. and really shag and the feeling was really damn shag and heartbroken.. its like, we have not slpt well for 30+ hours :( birdie and i have not even bathe.. really really feeling so damn down.. we even handed up late due to solving the error. hais. tink will got minus marks thou we really hope wun.. :( really did our best..

Exams.....
13 Feb - MSYD Lab + Written test
16 Feb - SWEN Presentation + Lab Test
18 Feb - SWEN Written test
26 Feb - EBM Written test 40%

tinking if i shld post what i am thinking now.. but dun really like to keep posting emo stuffs..

so anyway, my internet still not solve yet.. and have been watching shows these days.. like re-watching witch yoo hee.. watched Starlit, The Concerto and Channel 8 - The Dream Catchers.. rainie show gonna be out soon..

so i didnt mentioned that i actually sang 诚实地想你 for the song in OB last week.. by the way, new songs in the playlist** n shall upload pics taken from my hp.. (not now)

haiz.. too many things that i feel like saying..

shall end here.

acting rather wierd today.

wanna sing my heart out

Bought Phone

2009-02-04T23:48:00.002+08:00

HELLO
i have already bought my PINK LG Ice-cream phone!! KF350!! bought it ytd.. hehe..
really niceeee....

and.. i have made a decision!

im going to learn auto driving. haha.. manual dun wan bah =x too troublesome.. hopefully hopefully by end of this year can get license =x not very sure when to start too.. hehe

wanna slowly slowly earn money and get a really small car. haha. small cars are VERY CUTE!! :D

and back to y8 games and project =.=
PROJECT REALLY SIAN
ARGH

helloooooooooooooooo

2009-02-03T00:22:00.002+08:00

Hihihi~

I am very tired now but still haven slp yet.. hehe..
Getting really tired these days, earlier and earlier..
Getting more frequent headaches and more stomachaches these days.. haha
always wanna da bian.. LOL

i bomb everywhere i go =x

anyways, a song for this sat~~~ still haven decide on which one. haha.. a little nervous.. tink i will be feeling really bad on this sat.. and really scared to receive comments which will make me sad.. but still, i have to learn to accept comments :)

haha. hopefully i can get my new ice-cream phone this week! was thinking of white cos feng shui shi fu on television says lucky colour for horse this year is white! HAHAHA! but pink is kind of tempting to me... but still i am still considering but not troubled with tt.. hehe..

really hoping to change back to lens someday~ hopefully when my intern starts ;) cos i tink i can only wear daily lens.. dunno if i have explained.. but previously i wore monthly lens.. it was okay for the starting few months.. haha.. just tt my eyes really really dry and dunno how to drip eye drop.. =x my eyes were really red and frm den on, my eyes tend to close more under the sun.. it was better aft i changed back to specs. but the problem still stays cos i know the reason is oso bcos i slp late everyday.. lol.. another reason for monthly lens.. =.= the solution turns to reddish + greenish aft i wore it for ONE day! not one month ok =.= and its MONTHLY lens.. i have tried with a complete new lens and washed the lens box properly with new solution.. lol.. the next 2 days or so, the solution turns colour already.. my sister using the same lens brand and same solution dun hv this prob at all =.= so daily lens is so expensive that i tink i hv to wait a little more longer to buy it~ lol..

Taiwan dram Starlit by Jerry Yen is not bad~ haha! really lah.. go watch ^^ still considering on some other shows.. the other day watched a show acted by Kim Jung Hoon and Vivian Hsu.. the sound was however not theirs.. :( so it was rather not shuang watching it.. but the story i feel like continue watching but really bth the sound.. haha.. so i watched Witch Yoo Hee for the second time! haha.. still as funny and nice.. might be watching My Girl.. the comments not bad :) Transformers coming out on June~ heh.. and theres a movie showing Rain! Ninja Assasin~~ Theres also one show by Vivian Hsu and HuGe.. but nv heard of it be4.. however already got all the episodes.. haha.. when the time comes.. i will chiong shows that r nice ^^

this week gonna hand up assignments and exams coming up soon. REALLY SIANS. so many time of feeling like giving up.. i must continue to tahan!! songs, games and shows will all accompany me ^^

shld be slping at 1+ ltr~
byebye ^^

Chinese New Year 2009!

2009-01-30T13:50:00.010+08:00

Spring Cleaning~~

Chinese New Year 2009 Chu 1~

At Ah Gong house~

Dong dong and Yan Yan~ SO CUTE RITE!! HEHE

At my Gong Gong house~

Pei Xuan~ SO CUTE ^^

Chinese New Year 2009 Chu 2!

traffic jam!

Welcome to Sunrise Garden~

Renuion dinner at Chu 2 at Seafood International at Big Splash!

At the Airport with darling on Chu 3.. hehehe

Gadgets for 2009!

CNY eve

2009-01-25T00:30:00.002+08:00

Happy CNY eve to all~ haha..

I am really tired now.. dunno why these days get tired sooo easily.
Really disappoint myself aft today lesson..
but its just the beginning and i really dun wan expect too much from myself..
keep telling myself not to expect anything
really hate it whenever i know im expecting smth..
dun really knw if u und if i say it like this..

but anyway, really hope everything goes fine..

and.. hopefully i can manage to get my phone aft cny..
really scared i might regret..
cos i am gonna spent so much on it the first time i tink..
so its kind of scary..
but the phone is really very pretty..
if i really were to buy, still need to decide on either white or pink..
dar suggest white.. haha..
still in consideration :D

gonna slp now le..
sis wanna use the internet..
my internet still not solved yet..
haiz..

nitex everyone!
enjoy your new year ;)

p.s. rem to drink more water esp its new year now!! :p

Hellooo

2009-01-20T22:58:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone!

Please take a look at this.. haha.. really funny!

Butterfly sister and Show Luo so cute.. hahas.. if u wan u can go youtube find.. front part of this is fahrenheit guess word de.. very funny oso.. hahahahas.. esp when the guessing person spell dog.. u will understand if u go c.. lollls.. back part is Show Luo.. ;)

Okay!

Really sians now.. thou i feel like i got lots of things to do but kind of lazy to do it.. and i wanna say.. i am slowly saving up money for LG Ice-cream phone!! really pretty and cute! haha.. aft tt, i will be also slowly save money for an ipod nano.. nv had an ipod be4.. cos im very poor and always spend here spend there, i dun even knw if i can save up enuff to buy both of them.. :(

my internet at home spoil spoil de.. last time can 3 lappy use wired or wireless internet de.. but now, wireless cant even use.. and only ONE wired internet can be connected.. and i dunnooooo why :'( cant seem to solve it.. if anyone knows how to solve this, please let me knw.. thanks!! ^^

packed my room for the new year!! and together with my mei mei, we did a rather good job.. hmm not very good.. but compare to last time.. hehes.. its much better.. LOLS! i dunno how neat my room can last.. hahahas..

ok.. pls await for the short animated pic i have created myself! wait till im satisfied with it ok? if lazy, i will just simply post up wad i hav now =.= quite a lousy one thou..

and last but not least, take care everyone and stay happy!
lol!
byebye :D

Bla bla bla

2009-01-15T23:51:00.003+08:00

Hello!

Past few days keep blogging. But not in this blog! hahas..
its a blog for school project. ;)

Starting lessons this Saturday.. and.. i feel like learning another stuff. hahas.. but one at a time ;) cannot be so greedy.. must learn to be satisfied :D

Had been slping really late past few days.. all past 3am.. 4am de.. zzz.. really tired..
and i really need to exercise.. hehes.. the feeling come already.. LOL

Really wanna slack.. these days dar and i dunno where to go and what to do.. haha. cos we quit maple.. so suddenly nth to do.. many tings need money~ so expensive~

I have new favourite foods~
One is the egg tart.. u knw.. not the normal one.. is the slightly more expensive and crispy one.. really nice~ so in love with it~ actually last time eat be4 already.. but only aft i watched Wu Di Shan Bao Mei.. they put the milk candy into the egg tart! look so nice my saliva oso wan to drop liao.. YUMMY~ hehe.. tt day went bread shop with my mum and bought it.. wanna eat more~ hehes..

Guess wads the second?

Haha.. cheese tofu!~ i have also eaten this last time be4.. my mum fry de.. very nice.. lol.. aft tt nv eat again till few days be4.. saw tamp masar malam selling it.. awww.. and i bought 2 sticks.. so niceeee! lol.. 2 stick still not enuff wor! hehe =p

Actually im now very tired liao.. tink im going to slp soon.. if not i shall play some games be4 i slp.. by the way, my mei got her 'O' level results already.. haha.. hmm its good but overall not very good.. hahas..

ok. end here le.. nite nitex! :D

take very good care!!! these days really very very cold~

when will the day come :(

2009-01-12T03:47:00.002+08:00

Emo songs come at such a time
and it really make me wanna cry
especially when im doing smth like this
smth tt i dont have a choice.

haiz

sian sian sian :(

2009-01-06T20:27:00.002+08:00

Yo
Just rebonded my hair just now.
Aww wanna wash it so badly.. lol..
Having a bad headache now :(
Think im gonna slp early later..
Heavy heavy eyes..
Heavy heavy head..

ZZZZZZ

just simply scared my presentation will be crap.
cos i dun understand wad im doing.
haiz!

tml gonna be a rush.
to think of wad i need to do by this week, totally sians..
not even in the mood of watching shows and playing games.
totally no mood for anything.

hais.. wad shld i do now~~ zzz

Courage

2009-01-04T23:11:00.003+08:00

Whats gonna come next?
Got to accept it
Got to learn from it

Really dun wanna some things to happen like wad im scared it will happen.

If there is a second chance..

If right from the start, will things be the same?
Or will it be different?

Cant blame anyone cos nobody's at fault.

Is the decision made correct?

Will i regret? Or will i be glad?

Is it worth it?

Will they laugh at me?

If they really did, i really have to face it.

The courage that i need..
Really need it..

Have been thinking and thinking..

And no answers to it yet.

Just when i want to talk about it seriously, its really hard..
Cos it jus seem to be a joke..
What if i am really serious now, but i am really afraid half way thru,
what if theres no more encouragement?
What if there r no more support?
what if they ask me to give it up..
because of any reasons that might appear..

really scared that it will all become a waste..
i really really hope not..

really not interested in what my studies r doing nw. but i still have to face it. still hav to do my best. cause its been already so long.. i cant stop right now. what am i gonna do? nth at all.. really need some motivation.. and i really wanna do smth tt i am really really interested in.. i know it will affect.. bt i hope i will be happier..

dun wanna be so troubled. hope it goes away..
hopefully there will be answers too..

Dun wanna tink too much..
And worrying too much for studies..
Cos its really hard to put in effort for wad i am not interested in..

ARGH

Shen Qi Hui u must relax!
u must still give in ur best..
no matter wad :(

ahh~ really hate this kind of post..
one day i might really hv the urge to delete these posts..

HAPPY 2009

2009-01-01T00:28:00.003+08:00

HELLOOOOO

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

hehehehehe!

hope everyone have a happy 2009, everything goes smoothly, with good health, good studies, good business and many many more~~

Really really happy cos my mum finally agreed!!! HIP HIP HOORAYYYY!!
hehe. when everything is settled, i will blog abt it again ^^

By the way, i've already bought a dress for cny! hehe. one more set to go~

LOVE EVERYONE! MUACKS!! ^^

feel like going to kbox~~

2008-12-29T21:36:00.002+08:00

so tired :(

so long didnt felt this tired..

today start sch again.. 9am to 6pm.. ahhh~

aft watch my dinner, continued to watch shows online.. really tired.. watch till my eyes closing le.. and its 8pm =.= no choice had to take a nap.. and i jus woke up.. really dun wanna so early go to bed.. still hv many many shows for me to find and watch.. hahaha..

my slippers spoil already.. hv been wanting to buy a new one for so long.. hope tml can buy bahs.. wanna find cny clothes as well.. this year really no idea wad to buy.. other than buying hoodies and tshirts online, i nv go out shopping for clothes le.. only go bugis buy shorts.. hehe..

visited music forest last week and managed to get some info there. useful info ^^ didnt planned to go there but dar and i was somewhere near there so he drove and we jus try searching for the place.. hehe.. slowly bah.. :)

actually dancing is fun too :p

well well, i dunno wad to say le.. so gonna end here..
back to shows..
school tml at 12~ take care all ^^

lalala~

2008-12-27T02:45:00.005+08:00

Taken this days ago.. cute hor!?!
LOL
saw this at Suntec.. Christmas tree made of soft toyssss~~ wheeee~

very long nv take a nice pic with dar.. hehe.. but this pic we very far away.. o.0

you can go here:
http://www.youtube.com/user/nfoundz
my youtube account to see the videos i favourited.. lol.. got a lot very funny one.. lol.. jus now previous post i say bout rainie yang de.. heres the video..

wahahaha! gogo watch.. really funny.. haha..

really sians.. my pipi finally load ok.. haha.. watching liao zhai.. this "hua pi" part is a little scary.. last time already watched rainie's part of liao zhai.. her part really nice!! lol.. and jus finished the 陆判 part ytd.. chionged the whole day too.. lol.. tt part not bad.. ;)

ok. really end liaos. haha.. rem to watch tt video ah~ ^^

Waiting for last episode - Episode 34

2008-12-27T01:58:00.003+08:00

Hello!

So long no blog..
but cant let my blog rot..
hehe..

Little Nyonya is really really nice! just now finished episode 33!!!!! ARGH SO NICE. so damn ADDICTED TO THE SHOW.. everyday checking if they put up new episodes on mobtv already or not. hehe!! soo niceeee.. really exciting.. hehe..

A new year is coming very soon.. and dar cant countdown 2009 with me!!!! arghh its AGAIN!!! zzzzzz HAIZ :'( hoping to go vivo... seems like i can only countdown at home with the television :(

jus now shitted.. tink cos i ate mac de macspicy.. everytime eat mac spicy nv fail to hv bad stomach.. my stomach really weak =.= eat anything oso stomachache..

these days keep watching shows on youtube and pipi.. watch a lot shows.. lol.. got one really funny!! rainie yang went on this taiwan entertainment show and guessing word de.. haha.. if i rem i put the video another time here.. loll..

ok shall end here. wanna blog more frequent..

and wu di shan bao mei is getting interesting~ hahas..

really dun wanna nyonya to end~~~~~~~~ :(
everytime a nice show gonna end really really sad............. :(

one last thing, i didnt sign up for audition :(

anyway, take care all.. stay happy ^^

o.0

2008-12-18T04:24:00.003+08:00

HELLO
so long nv blog le..
i wun let it die off!~

muahaha

well, now so late liaos.. most ppl slping.. everywhere of my body is now aching.. i keep having typos now cos my right hand no strength at all =.= so hard to even type, to even hold anything.. LOLS! and my legs ahhhh~ wan to die liaoo.. my shoulders are aching too.. anyone wan to gimme free massage? hehe ^^

u knw y?

cos..

jus now went to play BADMINTON with birdie, dave, junwei and teng.. haha.. very fun.. they r so fierce.. even birdie oso fierce.. dun c her so small size.. she strength big big ;) hahaha..

im actually planning class kbox however did not :(

jus now watched IP MAN! omgoodness.. sooooo nice. hehes. i wonder y i always find shows i watch very nice and meaningful.. so hard to feel one tts not.. althou there r only a few of them still.. lols.. its bout chinese kung fu~~ woohoo.. go watch bahs :D watched TWILIGHT as well.. hoping tt show to film a little more detailed n more exciting one.. while watching the show was hoping so but quite disappointed.. mayb cos dar keep telling me wads gonna happen but in the end it didnt show.. u knw y!!!! cos he tot its this show he watched already.. but its another =.=zzz

but nvm dar :D its ok.. i love u ^^

haha.. yea, still catching little nyonya.. really nice~ hehe.. exciting too.. thou i already heard wads gonna happen through a few short videos from channel 8 website..

still have shows to watch......... like bolt and chiwawa.. hmm if i not wrong there r still more.. lol.. by the way, great thanks to ZhiHao - my 2nd sis long years classmate! haha.. guess y? cos cathay queue at ehub was really long and my bf n i were queueing for snacks and drinks.. so i asked zh who already gonna reach his turn to help me buy.. hehe! this made me manage to not miss anything of the show~! really big thanks zh ^^

ok shall end here..

omg!!! one thing i forgotten!!!!
forgotten to wish dar 13th Dec 20th BDAY in my bloggy..
sighss!!
sorryyyyyy dar!

Happy Belated Birthday Dar!

hehes.. love u ^^

byebye all.. take care :D

sians

2008-12-08T21:51:00.002+08:00

Haiz.
Really dun feel well. After this c# project.. really really wanna take a good rest and watch shows.. EBM test really nv study.. really put in a lot for sssd.. so i really hope everything goes smoothly.. hais. really worry for tml ebm test.. but whenever i c the slides, i really wan to slp. :( jus now wanna study den i actually went to slp :( slp wake up.. really feeling unwell cos i cant take naps.. stomach was really really bloated wanna vomit.. really headache.. aft tt went to slp again and was slightly better now..

Watched 12 episodes of The Little Nyonya 小娘惹 ytd and finished up 2 eps today. so a total of 14 episodes started ytd. lol.. really really nice.. anyways its a 34-episodes drama. watched in mobtv and its expiring next week :( the show is really nice.. and for the starting part.. it was really sad that the handsome guy and the wife died :( the guy really really love the gal.. soo touching.. i oso wannn~ really wanna mobtv to jus show all 34 episodes and i will watch finish them!!

ok. really sians.. and my blog going to die :( nobody chat with me.. can anyone jus say hello? lol..
say hello to my toes :D
bu liang xiao hua is going to be shown on channel u i tink.. hehes.. really happy they showing it in singapore so fast.. those haven watch go watch bahs.. :)
take care.

不良笑花 End

2008-12-01T22:07:00.002+08:00

不良笑花 has come to an end of total episodes of 14!
They had 2 episodes this week and its really a very nice show..
Rainie so cute and Wilber really damn handsome!!!!!!!!!! hahahas..
Wish wish they will work together again in future.. Jia si le is oso cute hahas.. first time see him in the show.. and first sight he really handsome.. lol.. the hair look like last time zai zai de hair.. :D
This is the very last part of 不良笑花 and its really a nice show pls go watch ^^ their songs inside oso very nice ^^ ahhhh my wilber...... no more liao!!!

2008-11-29T12:45:00.002+08:00

kbox with cousins~

haha.. see the date.. long ago.. taken be4 xc ns..

bu liang xiao hua....... tml!! exciting!! :D

proj :(

2008-11-29T01:32:00.003+08:00

Wah..
Time flies so fast tonite..
I reached home and continue with my c# proj.. and so fast 1 plus liao =.= now eating my dinner.. just cooked cambell.. was thinking not to eat since so late =.= very fat de!! argh..
decided to take a small break now.. and i regret drinking cambell cos now im full, feel like sleeping already zzzzz.. my eyes r closing =.=
ahhh find myself very stupid complaining these here.. and i really wish i can complete it as soon as possible.. althou some r already done, there r more to come.. zzzzz.. aft combining all our codings and web service, theres still more to do =.= haiz..
really difficult!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh

2008-11-27T22:33:00.001+08:00

feeling so helpless..
haiz..

2008-11-26T21:27:00.001+08:00

So hard to be happy.. :'(

Visual Studio Vista IIS

2008-11-25T21:49:00.004+08:00

Hees..
Just a post for my classmates..
In any case u all wanna install the IIS localhost for Visual Studio, no need to uninstall if u already hv it in ur lappy..
go to this link: http://learn.iis.net/page.aspx/387/using-visual-studio-2008-with-iis-70/ which tells u exactly the settings wad to tick and wad not to. just follow the pictures. aft tt put in the cd can sort of update can le.. go properties - shortcut and change it to run as administrator. :)
not very sure for windows xp.. cos birdie jus told me dun hv =.= mine is vista and works smoothly ytd :) hmm and althou the webby said for visual studio 2008, mine is 2005 and it still can work with the settings they gave..
hehe.. and now.. shall help with birdie =.= lol..
byebye ^^

Its show time on Monday! ;)

2008-11-24T22:55:00.002+08:00

YippeeE!
Just now watched 不良笑花 and 無敵珊寶妹!! This 2 shows really nice lahs.. those haven watch pls go n watch ^^

wish im in Taiwan and able to watch these shows once it is broadcasted!! hehes..
Finally today's paper finish!~ hehes. ytd my hand really itchy wanna play game and watch my shows!! hehes.. so its really a relieve thou theres more to come =.= esp projects..... zzzz.. lazy piggy..

Ytd had steamboat at Jesslyn's hus at Simei with my class.. Sam and his gf came too! hahas.. tink we took some pics but with the guy's hp.. fun~ ^^ had a hard time studying aft tt.. was really tired and bth already =.=

and really thanks lw for lending me his installation CD.. had to trouble him to bring home and lend me again.. =x but i believe he dun read my blog. hahas.. but still, thanks anyway.

really hv to cut down on my sweet stuffs cos i already HAD lots of sweet stuffs in my blood =.= and my relatives has diabetics.. so i really got a high chance of having it :(

oh, and ytd had 3 mosquito bites on my legs!! argh.. bitten while waiting for eunice n jm.. but aft the long wait, birdie n i still went over jess hus first.. we shld hv went up when we reached there =.= arghhh.. birdiee ah........ zzz really bth =.= u knw why.. argh dun laugh.. lol.. and birdie didnt got any bites at all =.=

really sians when tink of having to continue with projects =.= aww..

shall say bout it again tml :(